This is for Us

Of All My Silences

I must seem hypocritical...
"Let's catch up!" I say as I disappear from your life months at a time
Right as I think of giving up I promise, "I'll find a way!"

Then I'm silent when you need me most...

My mind and my heart at a never ending war and it is using you against me.
I will never let them taint my vision of you though, that I swear.

My mind thinks of the logic, my promises to my elders and yours.
While my heart sings of the stories and memories we shared, no matter what anyone said.

I must seem like a hypocrite.

I'm trying to right my wrongs but every turn I make seems to cause some damage in my wake. Wether to you directly or indirectly, or to me, or someone. I'm doing my best I swear... one day. Not tomorrow, maybe not next year, but one day...

I will fix this.

Ocean and a Rock - Lisa Hannigan