A New Start

what happened

Ciels pov

when I opened the door I saw alois just standing there and before I could say anything he passes out I quickly took him inside and saw what looked like cut marks on his wrist

'was he trying to kill himself?' I thought to myself 'but why' I asked and stitched up aloises wounds and looked at him and realized when I said I had a girlfriend he seemed to be out of it he didn't look to happy does he...no he cant have feelings for me its impossible but maybe not. What am I saying even if he did there's nothing I can do about it I'm with Stella and I'm happy right? I should be I mean the most popular girl in school asked you out dont forget that but still was it the right thing to do, do I even have feelings for this girl maybe not. What am I saying of course I dont I never had feelings for her at all I always had feelings for the blonde that was sleeping on my bed right now but I cant have him know that I finally got all the name calling to stop when I started to date this girl but that's not right not for her tomorrow I will tell her how I truly feel because I cant have this guilt that I feel

"c-ciel" Alois said in his sleep

"hm?" I said, he's asleep how is he talking

"I...I'm sorry" Alois said

"for?" I was confused its not like he could hear me but still

"I..I love ciel phantomhive" Alois said in his sleep

my eyes widened I didn't know how to feel I didn't think he did love me back that's why I went out with Stella in the first place it was all making sense the way he acted around me he seemed so happy and he always tried to make me happy and I just wasn't showing it but his attempts made me very happy I just didn't show it that well oh I'm so stupid I didn't put the pieces together sooner

"oh Alois I must have put you in so much pain I'm so sorry" I said to the sleeping boy that was just sleeping so peacefully on the bed and I started to play with the blonde boys hair

about an hour went by and Alois wake up

"hm? were am I" Alois asked

"your at my home you passed out on my porch here I got you some fresh new clothes and some warm tea you must be freezing"

"thank you" Alois said getting into the warmer clothes as I waited in the other room because Alois told me to I think he's still insecure about the scares on his body

Alois Pov

I finished getting dressed it was a simple navy blue shirt with some black pants not really my style but it was better then nothing or worse wet clothes and I soon walked out the room and walked to ciel

"thank you again" I said looking down and then back at ciel when I looked at ciel I couldnt help it the pain the heart ache was back and I started to just cry my eyes out

"Alois!? whats wrong" ciel asked

"n-nothing" I said smileing painfully through my tears

"Im fine" I said

"no your not whats wrong" ciel kept asking me I couldnt handle it anymore I wasnt thinking straight and put my hands on ciels cheeks closeing my eyes kissing him deeply as tears streamed down my face and my cheeks turn bright red and I could feel the heat going to ciels cheeks as well

to be continued