Staying In Love With Zak Bagans , The Sequel To Falling In Love With Zak Bagans

Its Gone 2am and Zak is still not home he has been out nearly every night this week, i thought once we married things would change and especially since the baby came along, boy was i wrong, we are going through a rough patch i mean he is busy with work i understand but boys nights are taking over instead of Daddy duties and as i stand here in the living room, baby Zeb in my arms trying to get him back to sleep, my eyes glance at a picture in a frame near the T.v  our wedding picture, such a lovely beautiful day, Zak is smiling i have not seen that smile in ages and the other pictures of him and the baby he does adore him but we have to sort things out i feel a distance growing between us, its weeks since he touched me im tired he says i do love you he says but i am having doubts, married life was supposed to be different, not perfect just..... i don't know ,  The picture on thw wall speaks a thousand words holding his son noses touching a beautiful pic, i just feel sad, Zeb is asleep at last im tired and wondering what time he will get home, so i take my sleeping baby back upstairs and lay him in his cot, he stirs slightly but doesn't wake up,  i sit in his rocking chair and fall asleep, im woken about an hour later by his crying but as i get up i realise i can hear him crying downstairs so i walk down the stairs and Zak is holding him, singing to him as he heats up a bottle, i watch in the doorway, he is holding him gently in his arms and Zeb is crying a little,  Zak hears me and turns around he whispers "Hi"  "Hi" i smile and hold my hands out for my baby,  he gives him to me and checks his bottle is ready and i sit down to feed him, i notice the clock in the kitchen reads 3;44 am im too tired to argue, so i say nothing, he speaks first, "Im going for a shower" and he walks upstairs,  

I settle him down in his cot, all is quiet and i get into bed next to Zak, and as we sleep away from each other i can't help but wonder what has happened did i trap him with the baby, all thoughts go through my mind i hope Zeb sleeps through, Zak turns over to cuddle me and wraps his arms around me i have missed himi hold on to his arm and he nuzzles into my neck,   

When i wake, the sunlight is streaming through the window, and its quiet no Zak and i check the babys room empty, so i walk down the stairs and in the front room i see Zak kneeling on the floor, changing Zeb into clean clothes he kisses him on the cheek, picks him up and standing up with him he passes him to me, "He has been fed and changed mummy " He says kissing me on the cheek "I have to go " "Zak wait i want to talk, " he turns to look at me "I promise we will later but im going to be late, "  he walks out the door 

As he walks in the door  he takes the baby and hugs him and he is smiling for once