Staying In Love With Zak Bagans , The Sequel To Falling In Love With Zak Bagans

Chapter 41

I leave Zak in his office to work I knew he wouldn't agree I really put him through a lot and I can't expect him to say yes just for me he needs to want this as much as me. He doesn't want to see me hurting

Zak is watching T.v with the kids Zeb is resting his head on Zaks chest they look so sweet. He catches me looking at him and Smiles at me he still makes my heart skip a beat.

A few weeks later

Zak and his Mum are talking "Zak you look like you have something weighing on your mind Are you ok ?" Zak sighs "Jo wants another baby " "and you don't " "Its not that I don't want another baby but there were complications and I'm not going through that again it was hell and I'm scared" "She knows how you feel about this ? " The question hung in the air" "Yes" "I hope your not making promises you can't keep" Zak runs his hand through his hair "I didn't say yes I need more time" "Are you being honest with her because if your just saying what she wants to hear your going to break her heart" "I have no intention of doing that" "Good you just need to be clear on what you want and if you don't want a baby you need to tell her sooner rather than later. "I know its going to hurt her"

Jo turns up at Zaks mums house

As I walk over to Zak he gives his mum a look

Home

I'm tidying up I hear a noise its a phone. Zaks phone I find his phone on the table under some Car magazines its a message. Curiosity takes over I read the message "Sorry to hear your having problems with Jo, be honest just tell her you don't want another baby xx" I feel uneasy he has been talking to Lily again talking to her about personal stuff its nothing to do with her why would he not talk to me ? His Wife ?

I'm still holding his phone when he walks into the room "Why do you have my phone?" I look at him he takes the phone out of my hand "Anything you want to tell me ?" I ask him he stands there "tell you what why are you going through my phone?" "So when were you going to tell me You don't want a baby " I avoid his question he sighs running his hand through his hair and nervously swallows "I was going to tell you" he puts his arms around me "Obviously not Why the hell are you running to Lily telling her our business ?" "Because i can't talk to you" I push him away he continues talking "She was just there " I raise my voice She is always there for you Zak" He rolls his eyes "You can't talk to me ? I'm your Wife ?" "No I can't talk to you your not listening to me all you want is a baby I can't go through that again" "Why didn't you just tell me be honest about your feelings" he moves closer to me but I move back "Because I knew if I said anything it would hurt you" "You talking to her hurts me you can't help yourself" "Here we go again" "Yes Zak you keep making the same mistakes" "Ok" he puts his hands up in defeat " I get it I won't talk to her anymore" "I don't believe you every time you go running back to her how do you think it makes me feel ? Or don't you care ? " Of course I care I just think your being selfish for wanting another child " "What are you being serious ? You led me to believe we would tty again that you wanted a child too" "I nearly lost you this tore our family apart what is it you can't see ?" He is angry "So you lied to me? " "No I didn't know how I would feel but we have two beautiful children I just want you to realise what we have" knock at the door interrupts us its Aaron zak opens" the door "Zak we have to go we are running ten minutes late already" He looks at me and kisses me but I turn away he kisses my cheek instead I'm so hurt as he walks out of the door with Aaron. So he doesn't want a baby is it me being selfish ?