A Glimpse Inside My Head

Story #1

In middle school, I wasn't the person I am today. I was far from it.

I was shy and never stood up for myself. I didn't ever really speak up unless it was for someone else. 

A few years before I was so outgoing.

That is until my sixth-grade teacher.

He ruined my self-esteem and made me fear adults.

He would always make me cry and blamed me for various things I didn't do. 

He would lower my grade for no reason and would basically just bully me.

I was a straight-A student, but when I reached that teacher, my grades fell. 

He made me hate subjects I used to love. I hated school. 

Honestly, he made me want to die. I didn't want to go to school. 

I didn't want to wake up everyone morning just to get to school and see his face. 

There was a point in time where I wouldn't go a day without crying or throwing up in the restroom. 

It felt like I was in a living hell.

 I tried to forgive him but in all honesty, I can't. 

He made me spiral into depression and triggered my already bad social anxiety. 

By the time I reached the 6th-grade promotion, I hated myself and my life. I hated being alive. 

By the next year, I was already self-harming and didn't care if I woke up in the morning. 

I seriously just didn't care.

About anyone or anything. 

I never spoke up about the teacher because he always threatened to call CPS or even immigration on my family. 

Now, I wish I had said something. 

Then, maybe my life wouldn't be such a mess.

~A