I am free?

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We have been in this house for two weeks now, I have had a few meltdowns but Mark only knows about one of them. It is so weird being able to do what I want to do. Mark said we can go to the beach in a few days. That will be fun, I haven't been there in years!

"It's good to see that you are still writing," Mark said sitting next to me, he took a sip of his cup of coffee as he placed my cup in front of me.

"Thank you and yeah, it helps me clear my mind. Speaking of um that, have you heard anything from my parents?"

"I was just going to ask you that, Every time I contact them it takes a while to get back to me. Like days."

"They are so busy with work, I remember always fighting about that with them."

"Did you want to try again?"

"Yeah, but I don't want them to know where we live. Jorden's words are still in my head."

"That's no problem, we can meet them somewhere closer to them and we can stay at a hotel."

"That sounds like fun."

"So I have an interview later today it is for some office job, but it is close that if you need anything I can be here very fast. If I get the job it is going to be weird hours. I am going to try to talk to them about different hours. Are you going to be okay here for a few hours alone?"

"It will give me practice for when you get a job, I can look up more schools."

"Are there any close?"

"Yeah, but I don't want to be in a classroom. I always hated that about school, I want to find something online, and free because I am broke. and no you are not paying for me to go to school. I will find some way to make money. I will get seeds from an apple and grow an apple tree and sell apples if I have too."

"Well, if you talk to the person in charge of the school and let them know why you didn't finish they might be nice and let you go in for free."

"People do that?"

"They can, what school are you looking into?"

"I don't know, I look then my head hurts."

"It's okay, we can find something for you. So I have hotdogs cooking right now, they should be done soon."

"Thank you, so I was thinking on going back to therapy, but I don't want to go to who I was going to."

"Okay, we can get someone new for you."

"Your not mad that I want to go back?" I am very confused.

"Why would I be mad?"

"Because it means I am crazy."

"You are not crazy, it is nice to talk to people about things that are going on in your life. It is even better when the person has no idea what is going on."

"Thank you." I got up and sat on his lap hugging him. He wrapped his arms around me hugging back,

"I am going to pick you up." He said as he stood up, he walked into the kitchen placing me on the counter, then checked on the hot dogs. "A few more minutes."

He walked in front of me but I stopped him with my legs.

"Do I need a password?" He asked laughing.

"Nope." I wrapped my legs around him pulling him to me, I wrapped my arms around him. " I just want to be held."

"What is going on in that head of yours." He asked softly.