I am free?

10

We have been in the new house for about two weeks, everything is almost done. Mark is taking me shopping today so we can pick out some more stuff for the house. I still haven't picked a hobby. Can playing with Chica be a hobby? I have no idea what we need for the house, Mark said it the other night but I don't remember. I don't want him to get mad because he has to repeat himself for me so I am not going to ask again, I'll just let him take the lead at the store. I am trying so hard to go back to normal. Chica helped me a few days ago, Mark went to get his shower and I freaked out thinking he left me. Chica rested her head on my lap then started to lick me until I came too, Mark found us on the floor of the kitchen. He wrapped his arms around us and we sat on the floor for a while. I need to get stronger, he does not need to worry about me. He probably thinks I tried to kill myself. I promise I don't want too, we both promised that if I take my life then he will take his, I don't want him to take his life. He has so much to live for.

"Are you ready baby girl?" I felt two arms wrap around me.

"Yep." I looked at his face but he was reading what I wrote.

"Baby, everything is okay. I know you didn't mean it." He pulled my chin up a little and kissed my lips. when he pulled away I stood up and wrapped my arms around him. "Everything is okay." He played with my hair.

"I'm sorry."

"There is no reason for you to be sorry."

"I need to get over this crying faze."

"You need to take a big breath and relax. This is not a faze this is what happens when you go thru hell like you did."

I finally wrapped my arms around him holding him tight. " Thank you for being so patient with me. I know I can be a handful, you have soo many other things that you can be doing instead of putting up with me."

"They really did a number on you, Baby girl, you are not what you just said. You are a beautiful woman who is living the life that was taking away from her. You are so strong and brave and they will never be able to take that away from you."

"Then why do I feel like they have?"

"Because every moment you were stuck there they did everything in their power to take it, but you are so much stronger than them."

"Thank you for believing in me."

He kissed the top of my head, "No matter what happens, you are stronger than them. How about in a few moments we leave to get the rest of the things we need to make this place ours."

"Okay."

"Oh before we go, Your school called."

"My school? I can't afford it and you are not paying for it."

"I don't need too, I looked into it and there is a Grant for victims of abuse and it is more then you will need for class. Which means they will send you a check for the rest that you can use as you wish."

"For like school supplies?" I couldn't believe it! they are going to pay me to go back to school.

"Whatever your heart wishes to use it for you can, but why don't we get Chica leashed up and we can head to the stores to get some more stuff."

"Kk!" I let him go then ran to get Chica in her vest and leashed her up. Mark grabbed the keys and his wallet as I got my purse together.

Before we left Mark wrapped his arms around me, "I love you so much, if one of these assholes show up I will have you go into the bathroom with Chica and I will take care of them. No one is ever going to abuse you ever again." He pulled my chin up lightly and kissed my lips. I melted into his kiss, my arms wrapped around him holding onto him so I didn't fall over. When he pulled away he held me for a few moments. "I promise."