going seventeen | seventeen

Chapter 9: Welcome Back

UPDATE BC I OWE YALL ONE AHhsksjs
this book is dying and if i go on hiatus without updating weekly, it might completely flatline. ALSO! i looked for my old journal and knew that exactly two years ago, i stopped hurting myself 💪 ya girl got emo but cheers! today is an important day for me!

about the hate, it still bugs my mind but it's ok! my good friend said something tho which made me realize that it's possible that all started from someone i used to know. if it's true then i'm speechless. never thought people will take it too far to bring me down and tell me to delete everything including myself, and i never thought i'd clear this out but yes i jokingly insult soonyoung and i really want to fight him (don't we all?) but he's my ult and i love and appreciate him a LOT since he's a huge inspiration to me along with the other boys.

but really, whoever started this, who cares anymore. i don't want drama in my internet life. i already have people personally telling me to die and thats so much worse but i can live with it, so i'm trying to think that this one will just go away soon. i'm mentally and emotionally tired but what can we do? life is shit just like that. anyhao i appreciate all the love. i truly don't deserve all of you! if you're having a bad time and you need someone to talk to, my dms are open 24/7 and i don't bite.

kinda hard, but let's all just try to forgive and forget? be the bigger person? yeah? also don't hurt yourselves because you don't deserve that. i believe you can stop and get through it step by step and know that you have my support along the way.
—jiro
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"minseul," jihoon followed me all the way to the kitchen. there's something about his tone that clearly shows he's bothered about something.

i turned around from the fridge, "yes, jihoon?"

"is soonyoung mad at me?"

"...probably?" i shrugged "don't worry too much about him, we all know that the boy is extra sensitive nowadays." the boy heaved a sigh and plopped down on one of the chairs, looking all bothered. i sat down next to him to pinch his cheek, "ah, jihoon, you're worrying a lot! that's bad, you know? it'll stress you out more often when you get back to writing the song for the 'operation make lee chan stay in korea' stuff."

"you're right," he mumbled "but it's so unusual that he snapped at me, i'm just not used to it. normally, i'm the one who gets angry."

"well, like i said, soonyoung is currently mourning over his baby plants. give him some space. i believe he isnt that angry with you though. he still let you sit on his lap!" i laughed out loud as the boy's cheek flushed red.

"stop mentioning that," he whined "i'm just going to get back home and finish writing the song."

"already? you're coming home already?"

"why? do you want me to stay?" he raised his brows "minseul, you have a crush on me, don't you?"

"you wish," i chuckled "wonwoo is my ideal type, you're cancelled." jihoon covered his mouth and pretended to be surprised, "aha, i'm telling soonyoung!"

"are you forgetting that he's mad at you?"

".......fuck you, i'm going home."