going seventeen | seventeen

Chapter 20: Get Back

hi so here's the first update in a while. like i said on the previous part, i'll stick around and see where this goes.

oke im gonna dip.
keep yourselves healthy!

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something felt wrong. i walked around the house with soonyoung trailing behind me like a puppy. as soon as he settled before me in the kitchen, i noticed how he was fidgeting with his fingers. something felt really wrong. it made me wonder what he was nervous about. usually, he'd be laid back whenever we have a conversation but this time, he seemed to be different.

is he really hiding something from me?

"soonyoung," i called. the boy kept his gaze at the coffee mugs sitting by the sink. "soonyoung," i called again.

no response.

"soonyoung!"

soonyoung opened his eyes wider and a nervous smile appeared on his flushed face. "i'm sorry, i was distracted," he laughed. "what is it that you want to talk about?"

"i want to talk about jihoon."

soonyoung's eyes avoided mine at the mention of jihoon's name. with his face turning into a shade of red, he said, "is it about him being sick? because i really don't know anything about it. i swear!"

"no, it's not about that," i replied. "whenever he gets mentioned, junhui and the others always look at you or say something about you. it's just like some inside joke i can't get. is there something i should know? something you guys aren't telling me about?"

soonyoung sighed. his hands slid across the table to hold mine. "it's kind of a long story."

"then i'll listen. we have all day."

"ah, i was going to do something else today."

"soonyoung, just say it," i said, quite sternly. soonyoung only took a deep breath and looked away, giving me no answer at all. he avoided conversation like he was guilty of something, so i continued on my own. "if you just told me already, this conversation would have been done right now. it's just a short explanation of whatever that joke is—"

"you don't have to know everything about me!"

my hands moved back in surprise. soonyoung looked annoyed—his brows furrowed and his fists tightly clenched. the worst part is i don't even know what's gotten into him. he was never like this. he loved talking endlessly and he could keep a conversation going for hours. maybe i said something wrong, maybe i came out as annoying about this whole situation.

i mean, it was just a joke, right? if i needed to know, the boys wouldn't hide it from me. maybe there's nothing to be worried about, maybe i'm overreacting.

"sshhh!"

i looked to my left, seeing the rest of the boys peeking from the doorway of the kitchen. they all looked like they've been there for a while. joshua and the others left in a hurry while chan stayed to apologize. it's funny how his ears were bright red.

"i'm sorry, we were just checking up on you guys!"

chan ran off and i let out a sigh. "i'm sorry, that was very rude to raise my voice like that," soonyoung apologized. "i must have scared you. anyway, jihoon and i were best friends so they tease us because we're not very close anymore. that's just it."