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Chapter 38: Disbelief

minseul was so happy to have soonyoung back, even without knowing how he really feels. soonyoung was fine—at least he's trying his best to be fine. maybe giving it another try wouldn't hurt. he loved minseul so he thought it shouldn't be too difficult to feel that way again.

"do you know how much i missed you!!??" minseul whined as she clung onto soonyoung's arm. the boy just laughed and wiped the tears off his face. minseul didn't know why he was crying, she just assumed that it was because he's happy that they're finally back.

minseul swore to mingyu that she'd forget soonyoung bit by bit, but she also couldn't resist the boy. the moment he decided to take her back, it was like she forgot every bad thing that happened between the two of them. call her crazy, but she just loves him that much.

"i don't really know how to act right now," soonyoung awkwardly chuckled. he's so cute, minseul thought to herself. just as she was about to give him a kiss, he continued talking.

"i know it's getting repetitive but i'm really sorry. for everything."

"i thought we already got past this!" minseul laughed out loud while soonyoung just faked a smile. honestly, he's happy that she's happy, but this isn't right at all. at this point he's just lying to everyone including himself.

he didn't even move when she kissed him. his eyes remained open and they darted at the bedroom window not too far from where they were standing.

jihoon. he needed to let jihoon know.

soonyoung gently pulled the girl away and gave her a sweet smile. "can you give me a minute? i left something inside," he said.

"sure, go ahead soonie."

soonyoung felt relieved to finally drag himself out of that situation. before stepping inside the house, he made sure to look back and tell minseul to not stay outside for too long because it's cold.

he closed the door behind him and sighed. soonyoung felt defeated. now that he chose to lie to himself and please everyone else, he's left with no choice but to continue what he started.

the way to the bedroom felt nerve-wracking. he stood in front of the door for a few seconds before twisting the knob and finally coming in. as expected, jihoon was in front of the study table, working on another assignment.

soonyoung's throat felt dry, but he managed to say a "hi"

jihoon only looked at him, then back at his work. that was already an acknowledgement, so the boy walked all the way to sit on the bed.

"jihoon..."

"yeah?"

it was silent.

"what? are you gonna follow that up with anything or..."

soonyoung gulped. "you know i love you right?"

jihoon's back was facing soonyoung, so the latter couldn't see his reaction at all. however, he did notice that jihoon's pen stopped moving. "what's this about?" the younger asked.

"um."

"i'm in the middle of something right now so just tell me what you want to say."

"can you stop your work for just a few minutes?"

"no."

"jihoon, minseul and i are back together."

soonyoung didn't know how jihoon would react. nothing could be heard in the room, until jihoon continued writing on his notebook again. the sound of the pen sliding through the paper was quite harsh, soonyoung knew he didn't take that well.