I wake up to someone shaking me. I open my eyes and see Jonah. "What happened?" He asked. "What do you mean?" I asked rubbing my eyes. "Why are Daniel and corbyn so upset after talking to you?" He asked. I pull the covers over my head. "Riley." He said. I sigh and roll my eyes taking the covers off of my face. "What's going on?" He asked. "It's none of your business." I said starting to put he covers over my face. He pulls them off right away. "I took that time yesterday. I'm not gonna take it again. Tell me what's going on." He said. I just look at him. "Me and corbyn has sex." I said. Jonah looks shook. "Really?" He asked. I nod. "Okay, so why is he so mad? And why is Daniel mad?" He asked. I sigh. "Daniel said he wanted to date me but he doesn't even know me. He just likes my face. So, I broke it off with him and wanted to date corbyn but he wasn't having it." I said. Saying it out loud, I sound like a slut. I'm not a slut. "Okay. I understand now." Jonah said. He starts to walk out of the room. "Jonah, I'm not a slut." I said. He turns around and looks at me. "I know." He said unconvincingly. He walks out. I put my hands over my head, frustrated. Why does everyone hate me?! I get out of bed and open the door. I see Jonah, Daniel, and corbyn on the couch watching tv. Zach and jack must be in their room. I walk in and see them both laying on the bed on their phones. "Guys." I said in a shaky voice. They turn and look at me. "Do you know what happened?" I asked them. "Yeah. We know." Jack said. I sigh. "But you don't...hate me right?" I asked. "We don't hate you." Zach said unconvincingly. I look down at the ground. It sounds like they do. I walk out of their room and run into Keri. "I'm so sorry." I said. She just looks at me. "Yeah. Me too." She said not talking about running into each other. She was talking about how I cheated on Daniel. I run into corbyns room where I sleep and I close the door behind me. I slide down the door and sit in the ground. A tear rolls down my face. My parents hate me, Daniels parents hate me, the boys hate me, why does everyone hate me?! Why did I do to deserve a life like this?! I have nobody that loves me. No one who actually cares about me. No one would even care if I died. I don't want to live anymore. I just wanna be in heaven with my grandpa. He was the only one who cared about me and know he's gone. I miss him so much. I want him to come back to see can move far away and live in a house together. Just the two of us. Maybe we can do that in heaven.
I actually cried writing this😂 hope you enjoyed. I know it's dismal. Thanks for reading!❤️
