[ Simanda ] Any happy ending for us?

Chapter 9: Wish I could turn back the time

   Simon's POV:

Amanda's wedding is nearly coming and it's still a big mess in my mind. I couldn't do anything except from going to work. However, I'm not really concentrate on work. Whenever I turn on my computer, a lot of questions about Amanda turn up in my mine.
- I think we should better have a meeting next time. Send me details about the schedule through my email, I'll check it later. I have something to do now.
I said to my co-workers and the staffs. I feel really sorry because it is not the first time I delayed the meeting. I can't even make a decision by myself these days. I need to be calm.
- Isn't there anything wrong with you, Mr.Cowell?
My closest co-workers asked
- Well not... I mean, actually there is something driving me crazy lately
- Is it something I can help?
- Louise, imagine that the woman you love sending an invitation of getting married next week... or tomorrow but you're not the bridegroom. What will you do?
- Hmm, it's quite a hard problem. I think I will come to her wedding and send her the best wishes
- Even that you love her!? I don't think it would be easy.
- Because I love her, I will respect her choice. I'm not the person she chose that is why she wants to have a happy family with another man.
I couldn't say anything then. Louise continues
- If you truly love somebody, you will always hope for her own happy ending, it's not just let her stay by your side. Maybe that woman has some reasons not choosing you.
- Thank you for your advice. I think I'm feeling better now
I smile at Louise and walk to my office room.
Louise was right. There must be reasons that she couldn't tell me. I'm not sure whether I would ask her what I'm curious, but one thing definitely is I'm gonna believe and respect her choice.

Amanda's POV:

Me and Chris are getting ready because the wedding is nearly come. I've tried my wedding dress. It looks really beautiful on me. And Chris looks nice in his suit too.
I decided to have a small party before my wedding. Most of the guests are me and Chris's best friend. However, I also invite my partners, who work with me in BGT. For me, it was an honor to be a member of Britain Got's Talent family. And of course, Simon will be at the party too.
I used to wonder a lot whether I should invite him or not. I would be extremely confused when seeing face to face to Simon. But I can just always hide from him. This party maybe will be the chance for me to explain everything he is curious about.

The party turns out really amazing. My friends all give me the best wishes for my new life. Chris was enjoying himself too.
A black luxurious stops in front of my house. It was Simon's car. He wears his white shirt with some unbuttons. This was his special own style. I sometimes wonder how many shirt did he have? He usually wears it in almost the show of BGT.
He waves at me and then walks towards.
-Hi Amanda, you looks nice
-Thank you, Simes
He kisses me on both cheeks and holds my hands tightly
-Let's go inside, Mandy!
Chris is chatting with some of his friends. He seems to be quite drunk. Stephen, Ant n' Dec and Piers looks really happy. They keep talking a lot from the beginning till now.
-My lady, I can't believe you'll soon get married
Piers said
-Hey, are you going to attend in the next BGT's season?
Stephen asked
-Of course, why you guys could think that getting married will avoid me from coming back. However, I'm not the person who could predict about that. My attendance depends on our powerful man
I said and quickly glance at Simon
-Don't look at me like that. I'm not that powerful. There are many producers involving in choosing the judge. I'm not the only decision.
-You always tell me that I should better obey you because you are the boss. How arrogant you are, Mr. Cowell !!!
- You two... Could you stop arguing like this. Isn't it a party before you get married Amanda. You need to feel relaxed. And Simon, stop being so childish.
Piers tries to prevent me and Simon.
Simon suddenly looks at me and winks. I could realise that it was a special signal.
-I will go over there and talk with my friends. Hope you guys will have a good time
I said and walk straight to the terrace. I grab two glasses of wine on the way. Chris  wasn't sober anymore so his friend has help him drive him home, it makes me more relieve. I don't want Chris to have any misunderstand about our meet. Simon is my friend, and maybe even more than that. We definitely will have many things to talk.

Simon's POV
After Amanda's leaving, I get my coat and tell Piers I want to go out for a while. I then go to the terrace, where Amanda is waiting for me.
-Do you enjoy the party?
As soon as I go there, Amanda asks me and gives me a glass of red wine
-Well, yes. Happy wedding, Amanda
-You keep calling me in that formal way. Don't be like that. Even though I will get married, we are still friend. I want you to call me in a friendly way
-Alright, darling!
When heard me call her like that, she smiles and suddenly hugs me.
-Thank you so much, Simon
It was so unexpected that I was taken aback
- You make me shocked. What has happened?
- I just want to say thank you for all the time we be together... And thanks for choosing me to be the judge, to let me could meet a nice man like you.
- You aren't sober, are you, sweetie?
-I'm now completely sober. I didn't drink much. I'm afraid if I get drunk, wrong things might happen again.
   I don't know what to reply her after she said that. I'm just standing there, let her hug me more and more tightly. She even drops her glass to the ground. Her arms around me, my heart starts to beat faster.
- Have you ever regretted for choosing me? Do you ever think about the reason why?
- By the time I decided to choose you, I have thought about it before a lot. But, never would I regret for choosing you to be the judge of BGT. The first time see you, I think I've fall in love with your shiny smile. Day by day, I soon fall for you, Amanda. I wish I could confess with you sooner, when both of us are single. I wish I wasn't hesitated in asking you to be on date. Any chances for me, to turn the time back.
-I'm so sorry Simon, for not realise your sentiment. I do have a feeling like you too, that is why I held your arm that night.
She starts to cry. I use my hand and carefully caress her hairs
-It wasn't your fault Amanda. Don't cry like that, you will get married tomorrow evening! I won't blame you for anything. I came here today, is for congrats your wedding. I will always pray for your happiness, darling
- Will we continue to be friend. Can I always be beside you like this Simon?
She looks straight to my face and asks me
- I promise you, as a friend. I will never let you go, till the day BGT ends. I will always stay here with you. Hug you when you need, comfort you when you are sad, talk with you when you lonely and giving the best wishes to your new life with Chris. Happy wedding, Mrs. Holden
I then kiss her on her forehead, and slowly kiss her on her lips.

Amanda, I really love her. And because I love her that much, I choose to let her go. I will let her go to the man she truly wants to get married with. We both in love with each other, but we was also too busy with our job for anything ever blossom between us.
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I'm sorry because I update the new chapter so late. But thank you for still waiting for me^^
I was really hard to write this chap. Even I'm the author. I'm not sure what I'm gonna write next, and the ending of this story is now mysterious.
Hope you guys enjoy it😁