My Bias Wrecker

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The sky turned grey.

What the hell is happening now? Is it going to rain?

I was sitting in the middle of my class when my eyes saw the sky outside from the window.

This is not a good idea. I don't even have my umbrella with me.

But the only thought that occupies my mind right now is the question that Jungkook-hyung asked. It is the only thing that matters in my mind though I still have class, I can not even concentrate.

Do I like him? Do I like Taehyung? Of course not. Why would I like him? He's a whore, an asshole and a bullshit.

Remembering his low and husky voice, handsome face, sharp and sexy eyes, muscular and perfect body.

He must be my type but I just can't get myself liking him. Jungkook is way more better than him. I believe Jungkook is a virgin himself. While Taehyung might have AIDS by now because of his filthy activities before we got engaged.

But then, he has given me everything that I want. If I asked him for something he would give it to me without asking. I even gave him my first kiss. I let him sleep with me. Yet I told him that he shouldn't touch me, I can not do anything whenever he's wrapping his arms around me.

I still have this feeling that Taehyung might be a good guy. That there's still little amount of goodness lurking in his body.

If Taehyung has been a very good guy, I might fall in love with him. I think it's possible because he is smart, handsome and all.

But knowing him just like how he sees himself. It makes me puke. Falling in love to a whore has never been a good idea.

Everytime that I remember him forcing me to marry him, it just makes my blood boil. Like what the fuck is his problem? Destroying my life right after he's done with his.

My classes were all done. I have eaten lunch with one of my friends and now I have to deal with this rain. I don't even have my umbrella with me, and I have my books because I have exams tomorrow. If this gets wet, I might bullshit something. My fucked up life is being fucked.

Oh life, can you make my life gets worse so I'll know how much attention you were giving to me?

I saw Jungkook  walked towards me. He was smiling from his ear to the other.

Yeah. Talking about my fucked up life being fucked. Taehyung must be on his way now. If he sees me with other man he might bullshit all of the shit in our life. Fuck it.

Jungkook leaned beside me and shared me his umbrella. " Hyung will take good care of you." He said as I wasn't looking at him.

Is he aware that I'm not liking the situation?

I looked up at him from my side. He was still smiling at me. " Do you remember? That was the first thing I told you when I asked you to date me" he said while laughing.

I don't want to remember sweet things right now when I can feel my ass being set on fire.

I saw Taehyungs car as Jungkook led me to the gate. Shits were trying to  get worse. Fuck my life.

Jungkook suddenly took the books in my hands as he led me towards the gate. "Maybe I should just take you home." He said, blushing. " But I didn't bring my car with me so I think we'll just take a cab."

I felt a hand on my left arm.

Shit.

Taehyung took me from standing beside Jungkook. He was holding an umbrella and he made sure that I won't be wet.

His eyes were dead serious, looking at the figure in front of us. "Those books aren't yours right?" He finally spoke. He was looking at him intently.

I can see that Jungkook was frightened from Taehyungs seriousness.

Taehyung took my books from Jungkooks grip. " You shouldn't touch things that aren't yours." Taehyung said to him.

He was really serious. I could feel the tension from his grip in my arm. He suddenly looked at me and said "Right, Sae?"

I bit my lip as I felt like whimpering from his grip in my arm. Jungkook noticed that I was in pain so he tried to grab me from Taehyung.

But suddenly Taehyung snapped and pushed him against the wall behind him. "I already told you. Do not touch what's not yours. I don't really like repeating myself. Now stay in your fucking lane and fuck off"

Luckily Jungkook was okay. But he doesn't look fine. I murmured sorry to him before Taehyung dragged me towards his car.

He shoved me in the passenger seat and I heard him hissed. I saw my wrist, marked with his hand and rubbed it. It felt so fucking numb I can't even feel it.

As soon as he get inside the car he immediately stepped on the gas that made me clench my fist in my chest.

"Taehyung! You're gonna kill me!" I shouted at him. But it seemed like he's not hearing anything. He kept on driving vigorously. For Pete's sake!

As soon as we reached a place that was hidden from people, he stepped on the break. I suddenly gripped in the handle for I might bump my head in front.

"What was that, Sae?!" He asked. He was throwing death stares towards me, and I can help myself from letting a whimp.

He was very frightening when he's mad. "I was trying to understand you, Sae. But maybe you could just consider our situation. At least consider this marriage." I can see that he was trying to be calm himself. But as he clenches his hands I can see that he was trying to control himself from hurting someone.

I can not make an eye contact to him since he was really angry. I tried looking at everything except his angry face.

I even felt my heart pounding against my rib cage from his shouting.

"Do you know how eager I was to kill that guy?! Yet I tried to control myself because of you!" He shouted at my face.

I clenched my knuckles as I felt his anger running down my spine. He was bringing frightening bolt of electricity towards me and I can not help my self from letting out a loud whimper.

I am such a scaredy cat when Taehyung leaned closer and held both of my sides. "You are mine" he started leaning his face in my ear " You are mine, and mine alone. Seeing you with other man makes me sick. I felt like messing around but you..." he sighed and stopped. He looked at me intently with his angry death stare. It faded when Taehyung said" you asked me to be a good boy and I swear I am really trying. So please, Sae." He leaned closer to my face and I shut my eyes closed when I felt him crash his lips against mine.  He kissed me many times but I wasn't responding. He knows I won't. "Be mine" he continued kissing me till his lips were brushing my neck up to my jaw.

He was sucking me. Breathing me in as if his life depends on me. "I don't regret loving you, Sae" he said, kissing my neck. "But I don't think it's fair. You should love your hyung back." His hands loosen it's grip in my arms and he head back to driving.

Maybe it's time to appreciate hyung. I thought

My heart was beating real fast. Pounding against my chest and I think he can hear the fast and hard beating of my heart.

I felt my cheeks burned. That wasn't the first time that he kissed me that way. From our honeymoon he did that, but I didn't kissed him back and I didn't respond because I really don't want to.

But why am I feeling this? I feel like I want him to kiss me again so I could kiss him back. I feel like I should have done something.

From the window, I saw the sky. It was blue and bright.