My Bias Wrecker

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It has already been days since the last time I've talked to Taehyung.

I just realized that we were taking the rough road easily. I've come to think of the things we've done, and those were so ungodly, at least for me. We were taking everything so fast, and I have been doubting myself why I was doing it, half-heartedly with him.

It's not like he hasn't been kissing me for the past year that we've been together, and those moments were killing me because I hate it— I hate him. But why am I not even hating him these past days? I'm more like into luring and playing around with him that makes me anxious these days.

I've already started going to school since then, even though my parents got mad at me, I insisted that I should go  because I miss school. Well, I can't just tell them that I was always making out with Hyung and got flustered and confused so I decided to get away.

I'm at the schools football field hanging out with Jungkook. I asked him to play the guitar since I saw him on social media last time. I just thought that maybe I should spend time with a friend today than hang around with nobody.

He was currently playing the song 'Love is not over' and I can't say that I didnt admire his soulful voice. The experience was even great since we were close to each other.

"That was so cool, Hyung." I told him after he played the song. He kept strumming with that cute smile of his while looking at me.

"My pleasure, sweetie." He told me and just laughed at the nickname.

"By the way, I'm sorry for asking, but don't you seemed off these days?" I asked him while fidgeting the paper I have. "You know, I'm sorry if I'm bothering you, I just don't really feel like being with somebody else, like my girl friends. All they do is talk about boys, I don't even get why they do it. I mean, I have my own crush but—"

"No, it's okay. I like accompanying you. Don't think that you're bothering me. There are just things I don't seem to get these days, and it's been lingering in my mind." He said, looking at the ground. He pushed aside the guitar and looked at me.

He smiled. "I like someone. But she's owned by somebody else. I don't know if they really work together, all I know is that I could make her even happier than with that guy." He said.

"Oh" was the only thing I was able to let out that time... Hyung likes somebody.

I tried to laugh at him and acted cool. "That's the spirit Hyung. Go for that biQtCH and make her yours." I told him and we both laughed.

Things like this just reminds me of my teenage-not-yet-married days. I wish I could like someone. I wish I can have someone like Jungkook who would fight like that just to get a girl.

Jungkook hyung likes someone, I can't say that it pains me, I had a crush for him after all. But he's a nice guy, he deserves the world, and I bet he'll get the girl she wants.

We had talked about the girl she likes, and she's somewhat, unlikely. Like she doesn't have that much friends, always alone, aside from being Jungkook hyung sometimes because he said his boyfriend is not in our school. She's somewhat unfriendly and he said he prefers to be with Hyung tan his friends, even if she knows his boyfriend would get mad and jealous.

But hyung said she's pretty, and intelligent, there no more way to dislike the girl when she's just like me. Pretty, and intelligent in so many ways.

The ride towards home was so unusual.

Taehyung doesn't talk. Even if I'm ignoring him inside the house, he still takes me to school and fetch me. He had done that everyday, but now is an exception. He doesn't talk. Usually he's talkative even if I don't reply to any of what he says or asks.

Back to the school earlier, he was just leaning outside his car with cigarette. I already told him to stop smoking when he fetches me or when he takes me to school. But he did it today. He was even smoking right now.

When I was near his car, earlier, he didn't even wait for me to go inside. He didn't open the door for me, and just slid himself inside. He doesn't do that, he never did.

He closed the window after he threw the cigarette outside then he blew the smoke inside the fucking car! What the hell is this?! He knows I hate the smell! Is he mocking me, testing me, pushing me to the edge?

I fucking hate this and it possesses me off!

"Taehyung, what the hell?!" I said as I try to push the smoke away from me. I opened the window eagerly just to get rid of the excruciating smoke trying to get on my lungs.

I glared at him when he doesn't even dared to move, day sorry or even pay an excuse. He didn't do anything.

I shot my eyes to the road and crossed my arms on my chest. Fuck this. He's trying to fish the bitch out of me.

"I already told you that I hate smoke, right? I ate your smoke. Can't you understand that simple thing, you idiot?!" I yelled at him.

But he was just focused on the road. I don't even know if he's paying some attention to me.

"Ah! This fucking frustrates me!" I shouted all of a sudden with ungodly gestures as I screamed myself out.

"What the hell is your problem?! You wouldn't even say sorry?! What is with you?! You shouldn't have fetch me if you'll act like this!" I shouted at him because anger. I didn't know how just a smoke fueled me up and made me fire up. "You know what, fuck you!" I said and  made a gesture at his face.

Suddenly the car stopped and I almost hit my head on my front. He gripped my arms and pinned me my chair. He wasn't using his seatbelt that's why he easily hovered himself above me.

He leaned in and frantically kissed me. Smashing his lips roughly against mine for a whole 10 seconds. Then he pulled himself up and stared back at me.

"You dare to say that when you yourself ignored me for days, right after you seduce me?! You're asking what's wrong? You're confusing me Sara! I didn't signed up for shit like one-time things. I married you, so act like a wife and not some sexy girl who just wants attention because you know I'll give everything and then ignore me." He said and slammed his hand next to my head.

I heard a honk from a car behind us. We must've staying there for too long, and were probably causing traffic.

I was left there  flustered, dumbfounded, and confused. I didn't even feel that he started the car again.

Hyung, I'm also confused. You're not alone here.