My Bias Wrecker

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I woke up with a pain in my head.

I palmed the half of my face where my right eye sits. It was stinging right under my skull, and it was too painful. Eventually I decided to caress my temple to ease the pain. But none of my ministrations helped the pain in my head.

I shut my eyes to concentrate on easing the pain but suddenly I heard the sou d of the alarm which only made the pain in my head lose it's shit and sting a little more.

I whimpered.

It wasn't any normal headache nor migraine I usually suffer from, it was something unexplainable, too painful, too real to be even felt by the low immune system I have.

I was sitting in the bed, with my eyes shut and both of my hands were trying to ease the pain when I suddenly felt dizziness.

I was walking along the road with snow in both my feet, it was cold, I was wearing padded jacket and a sweater inside, though it wasn't helping me. I looked at my pale fingers, it was longing for something, for someone.

I stopped walking as I felt tears in my hands, they were warm, but I still felt cold inside. A rush of blood could be felt inside as I heard his voice, "Saera."

I didn't bother to look up just to see his face, I would never let him see me crying all the shits out this world, out of the pain he brought, I wouldn't let him to.

I clenched my fists and brought them to my sides. "Are you crying?" He paused and looked up to me after he lowered his head to meet my pained eyes. "Stop crying, Sae. Hyung will be back. I'll come back."

I felt my heart pound hard against my chest as a rush of blood streamed in my veins. I looked up to him with furious eyes, "So what if you come back or not. I don't care anymore, you'd still be with her, with your whore. Why bother coming back if you'd only leave me again?!" I shouted at his face and growled out of anger.

His eyes grew bigger and his face made a shocked expression to just what I have said. He reached for my hands but I took it away from him and continued walking the cold road.

Alone.

But he didn't gave up. I felt his hand on my shoulder and shuffled me to face him. "What—" he sighed and shook his head. "I'm not leaving you Saera. I'm not. I just really have to go with my girlfriend. I will still be here for you, Hyung won't leave you. I love y—" I slapped him.

It was all sudden and I just felt my nth mental break down for the day. He was leaving with his girl. He would leave me. Alone. Does he really have to do this? How come he could really hurt me when he knows he's the only one I could hold onto? Isn't he sadist?

"Stop hurting me, Taehyung. Someday you'll regret you even hurt me, you'll regret you made me feel this way. You better stop before you fall on your knees and beg for me. I hate you." I said and walked past him.

I wiped the tears in my face as I walk through the lonely road.

The snow was on my feet, but the cold was every where, even in my heart beat. The pain was unbearable, I didn't even know how I was able to feel it with my whole body. It made me become vulnerable but I had to be strong, much better I have to invincible.

The cold was barely forgiven and it wasn't even invited, but I guess I just have to deal with it.

I opened my eyes slowly as I felt a hand helping with my temple. "Does it hurt that much?" I heard Taehyungs groggy voice. He was awake.

"So much, hyung. I don't think I could go to school today. But since it's still early, I'll see if I could." I told him and caressed his hands.

"You won't leave if I stay, right?" I told him. He responded to my touch and I felt him lean his head to mine.

"I won't."