Come Back

11 // Confessions

Erikas POV-
I pulled Logan off of me and didn't know what to say. Hailey and Jake both had confused looks on their faces. Logan and i just stood stumped. I was uncertain of any of our next moves.
The sales lady just walked away, and Logan and Jake stared into each others eyes.

Logan: um.. so.. what exactly did you see.. happen?
Hailey: well you and her were sucking each others faces off
Erika: shut up bitch.
Jake: Erika! Chill..
Erika: well.. tell your barbie doll to shut her mouth
Jake: how about you tell us what we just walked into?
Logan: it was just a kiss
Erika: yeah, why do you care?
Jake: MAYBE ERIKA, BECAUSE YOU LOSE YOUR VIRGINITY TO ME THEN KISS AND FLIRT WITH MY BROTHER THE NEXT WEEK

Logan looks at me and laid his hand over his mouth. Hailey stands looking puzzled and a little jealous. Jake was tensed and i was beyond mad now.

Erika: WELL MAYBE JAKE, IF YOU'D CALL ME THE NEXT DAY OR EVEN TALKED TO ME ABOUT IT I WOULDN'T HAVE TO FIND SOMEONE ELSE BUT INSTEAD YOU GO RUNNING BACK LIKE A LITTLE BITCH TO YOUR EX GIRLFRIEND WHO HAS HOOKED UP WITH HALF OF THE SCHOOL.

Hailey left right after i finished my thought. Jake was looking at me right in my eyes. He was fighting back so many tears, and his lip was quivering a bit.
I was trying hard not to show i was hurt. I didn't want him to see me crying. Jake shook his head lightly and walked out.
I look over at Logan. He was confused but a little suspicious.

Logan: so you and Jake-
Erika: yeah, it was at the party. We were tipsy.
Logan: do you regret it?
Erika: i live life with no regrets my friend.
Logan: well as long as you know, im the better brother
Erika: of course. And sorry about kissing you.
Logan: No biggie. I liked it.. if you ever you know.. you know where to find me.

I rolled my eyes and laughed. We walked out the changing room and paid.
We met the others outside and i told Anthony that I'd ride with Logan. Since everything got awkward.
Hailey looked super annoyed with everything, and Jake wasn't paying much attention to her. Im just gonna let  them figure that out.
Logan and I jam out and act goofy the whole ride home. When we pull up i kiss Logan's cheek and go to my house.
Anthony pulled into our house and Jake and Hailey walked to Jakes house. When Hailey passed me in the yard she called me a "bitch" under her breath. I just laughed and kept walking.
Then Jake passed me, but he stopped me. He jerked my arm lightly and looked directly in my eyes. I didn't meet his eyes, i looked away from him. I could feel his eyes cutting deep into me. It was intense. I looked down at him holding my arm and aggressively pulled it away.

Jake: you and I are talking later. A sit down. Face to face. 
Erika: whatever

With that i walked into my house and up to my room. As i reached my room, i could hear Tessa moaning loudly and the sound of Chances bed hitting the wall. I slammed my door and put my stuff away.
Anthony knocked on my door and i opened it, i signaled for him to sit on my bed. I was brushing my hair and Anthony muttered something.

Erika: what?
Anthony: did you.. kiss logan today...
Erika: yeah, so?
Anthony: So whats your deal?
Erika: what do you mean?
Anthony: first, you kiss me. Then you have sex with Jake and now your kissing Logan?
Erika: you make it sound worse than what it is.. im just exploring my options..
Anthony: but you seem like a...
Erika: a what tony? A hoe?

He sat there in silence. I knew by his hushed voice he was agreeing. I roll my eyes and sigh.

Erika: Look Anthony, i know you think you can act like my older brother, but you're not. You're just a friend. And quite frankly.. you are not one to judge. You've had your fair share of women.

There was a slight pause. And an obvious change in my tone.

Erika: But thank you for pointing it out.. i didn't notice how bad it seemed. Now i know.

I hug him and he walks out after flashing me a smile. I guess he did make a valid point.  I may have gotten carried away. And i should strain away from the idea of a boyfriend right now.
A while after Tessa and Chance go at it again. At which this point, im beyond annoyed so i put headphones in and lay in bed.
Thankfully, Anthony comes in again, i was bored as hell. But then a second body entered my room.

Anthony: says he's here for you. but if he tries anything.. you know where to i am.
Erika: Thanks Anthony.

He leaves and I close the door behind him and walk back to my bed.

Erika: Hi Jake.
Jake: Hey Erika
Erika: so what is it you wanted to talk about?

He slams his lips onto mine. He slips his left hand behind my ear and his right one cups my cheek. He pulls me closer to him. I wanted to fuck him right then and there. But he pulled back.

Erika: wow
Jake: im sorry. Erika im sorry for not calling you. Im sorry about Hailey. Im sorry for taking your innocence away.
Erika: Jake..

I pull his hands from my face and let them drop. I get up from the bed and start pacing back and forth with one hand on my head and the other on my waist.
My mind was racing. Thoughts of my love for him, my hate for him, my lust and disgust for him. All kinds of thoughts good and bad.

Jake: Rik.. are you okay-
Erika: just thinking!
Jake: about?

I stopped right in front of him and looked into his eyes. I leveled with him since he was sitting. 

Erika: i like you Jake. I like you a lot. Like a lot. But i don't think you're ready, or maybe its me. But you and I obviously have a special relationship. I know its annoying to have me harassing your... Hailey, but its all love. I just want the best for you. Trust me its not her. And maybe i could be her.. someday. I just don't think us being together is right for now.. but you and i both hooking up with other people has to stop.

He looks at me, squints his eyes and moves his lips to one side as if he was thinking about it.

Jake: i agree Erika. I like you. I don't want to admit it because you're a total bitch to me, but i think you're special. My girl.

We exchange a smile and i kiss him once more before things got way serious, way fast...

Suspenseful???? Next chapter will be fun☺️
yall... I know its been a couple of days, but heres a chapter. I hope my schedule changes soon, so i can write more! 
Love yall ❤️