This Is How I Disappear (Negan/OFC)

Chapter 50

——— Negan's POV ———

We load up our truck with all our weapons to head out to the meet with fuckin' Eldritch. It's a tight fuckin' fit, but Eldritch said one car only. And I'm not gonna fuckin' test him.

What the fuck am I even doing? I fuckin' hate myself for rolling over and taking what Eldritch is doling out. I want to just fight him. Kill all his men. Be over and done with. But I just can't. There's that voice in the back of my head that refuses to gamble with Chuck's life. I just fuckin' can't. So now I'm a fuckin' impotent little pussy just allowing Eldritch to shit all over me. But I fuckin' hope my men don't see me that way. If they do, no matter how this shit ends, I might lose everything.

I head out with the same people I did before. Me, Dwight, and Arat are in the front of the truck and my two other saviors are in the back with the guns.

After a while, I cut the silence with a huff. "Well this is shitty."

"Yeah," Arat confirms. "But we'll get the weapons back. Once we really show Eldritch what we're capable of, he'll go down fucking hard."

"Exactly," I say more confidently than I actually am. "You keep reminding the guys of that. That this shit is just a ploy to get Eldritch right where we want him."

Arat turns to me. "They know that, sir. They know we're gonna take that bastard down."

"Good." I rub my hand down my cheek. "I don't need anyone thinking I'm weak."

"We know you're not," Arat replies quickly. She was always one of my most loyal guys. "And I'll set anyone fucking straight who says different."

I chuckle. It makes me feel a little fuckin' better that she's got my back.

We pull into the area just like before and get flanked by Eldritch's men. Just like before. They lead us to a spot and we park. They pull their guns, just like before and we start to exit the truck, my guys in the back included. Eldritch's guys round us up to stand next to the truck before Eldritch comes out. When he does, he gestures to his men and they start to empty the back of my truck, moving the weapons into his own vehicles.

"I'm glad to see that you didn't cause any trouble," Eldritch starts with that smug fuckin' grin on his face. "I was actually expecting a fight here."

"There's still time," I say before fuckin' thinking. I just can't take his fuckin' face and it make me want to lash the fuck out.

Eldritch chuckles, but I can see that he didn't fuckin' like me talking back.

"Where's Chuck?" I ask before he can say anything about it.

"Not here. You didn't think you'd get her back so soon, did you?"

I shoot that fucker a glare.

He pulls a picture from his pocket and hands it to one of his guys. That guy then walks over and hands it to me

I bite my fucking lip so hard that I taste blood when I look at that picture. Chuck is standing in the middle of a room in a fucking skimpy ass white nightgown. And she's fucking crying. Her face is all red and her eyes are all puffy.

I shake my head. "You fucking touched her," I growl between my teeth without looking up. Everything he probably did to my girl flashes before my eyes and I see red. "You fucking touched her!" I move to lunge for that fucking piece of shit Eldritch, but one of his guys fuckin' pistolwhips me, making me drop Lucille, and tackles me to the ground. He can't fuckin' stop me from fighting, though. I'm in a fuckin' rage and just punch and kick as hard as I can at anything that gets in my way. That is, until two more guys come over and finally hold me down.