Euphonious Memories {H.S}

57.

Past time(2016)

(Harry's POV.)

"Gemma, don't you know the reason that I call her five times a day? It isn't because I want to bother her, it isn't because I want sex, and it isn't because I just want to be friends. I need her. I need Skyler. I am honestly saying this from the bottom of my heart, I will die without her." I said to my sister frustrated.

She then had tears in her eyes. It was emotional tears from what I had said.

"Harry, I'm not the one you need to be telling this to. You have told me time and time again, but when have you ever told her?" She asked me, wiping the smeared mascara from her eyes.

I had tried so fucking hard to convince Skyler just to listen to me, but every time she just blew me off or yelled at me.

I hated seeing her go around all happy and giddy, while I was miserable.

Everyday was the same. I would Wake up, have a couple of beers, call Skyler every three hours, then drink more until I passed out on the couch of my apartment.

"Don't you understand?! I have talked to her multiple times and she will not listen to what I have to say, she is doing absolutely fine without me, while I'm a fucking mess!" I yelled at my sister, but feeling bad about it immediately after. "Sorry." I apologized softly.

She nods her head and then sits down beside me on my couch and puts her hand on my back for comfort.

"Harry." She says gently. "You may have attempted multiple times to talk to her, but you haven't truly tried to tell her how you feel." She said.

"Yes I have, She doesn't give a damn."

"Yes she does, trust me I live with her. I see how different she acts. She is not okay, but she puts on up her walls and wears a smile anyway. She told me that when you broke into the apartment the other night you tried to talk to her. She said that you told her you loved her still." Gemma says.

"Yeah and she cut me off by using the "You were lying the whole time,"card." I said with and scoff and a sigh.

"Harry, you have to tell her more than that, you have to give an apology, which I know you have done a million times already, but you have to tell her what you told me. You have to tell her that you are literally dying. I mean would you just look at yourself? You used to very rarely drink, and now there are beer bottles all around this place." She says looking at all of the broken glasses, and cans scattered across the apartment.

"How can I get her to listen, though? Gemma she literally walks the other way if she sees me anywhere and she will not answer my calls. She started answering a few times after I broke... I mean I didn't break in, but she doesn't answer at all now."

"Well she can't turn down a customer." Gemma said with a wise look in her eyes.

"That's true, but she will make that short little sarcastic guy take my order." I say rolling my eyes at the thought of that guy. I didn't know him personally, but damn he got on my nerves so bad.

"Louis can not take your order if Louis is put to work by the manager." She said smiling.

"You would actually do this for me?" I asked her and started to gain a little bit of hope back.

"Of course Harry, I am your sister, and Skyler is my best friend. I hate seeing the two of you so miserable. I miss the old days where we could all hang out together, and not separate."

"Yeah me too." I smile thinking back to all the movie days Skyler would organize for us to have.

"Please let me help you clean this mess up." She said grimacing at the cans and glasses everywhere.

I nodded and we both got up as we began to pick up the trash off my apartment floor.

"So how is Raine?" I asked genuinely wondering. The last time she saw me didn't go too well.

"She's...better, I guess." Gemma said slowly.

"What exactly do you mean by that?"

"Well she doesn't go absolutely crazy when we say your name anymore."

"We? As in you and Skyler?" I asked her without being able to control my smile at the thought of Skyler talking about me.

"Yes Harry we talk about you." She said rolling her eyes."

"So, Skyler talks about me?" I asked her smiling still.

"Yes, I told you that she isn't doing too well with the breakup either." She said as if I was supposed to know what they talk about.

"What does she say?" I started to get excited.

"Really Harry?" She said as she started to get pissed.

"Oh come on just tell me what she says, and I will leave you alone."

"Ugh, Fine." She groans and walks over to throw away some trash in the trash can. "She talks about how much she misses you sometimes, like when we are watching Netflix or just hanging out. And other times she talks about how pissed she gets at you for calling her. Then there is those days that she stays in her room, and when I knock she tries to cover it up, but I can tell that she is crying." My sister told me.

My heart dropped when she told me the last part though.

"She cries?" I Ask feeling the weight on my chest making me want to comfort her, but I knew that I couldn't.

"She has never had her heart broken before Harry, you were only like her second boyfriend ever. She told me the first was in her middle school, so it really doesn't count."

"I really really really have to see her now Gemma, I can't just let her hurt. I never meant for it to be like this." I told her, finishing up the cleaning.

"And you will, tomorrow when she is at work, now you need to go to bed and get some rest because you look like you haven't slept in days." She told me.

"Yes ma'am." I said smirking.

"And no more drinks, Harry I mean it." Gemma said as she grabbed her purse and walked out of the door.