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~ Y/N POV ~
Warning - bit of blood but idk if it needs a warning

"What's wrong with you! Did you really have to say those things on live TV!" My manager shouted at me over the phone.

I am too tired for this.

"Yes! It was very necessary! Do you know how sick and tired I am, of being bullied just because I have to to wear this ridiculous disguise? No! You don't! Now, goodnight!" I screamed back, before hanging up on the call, and throwing my phone on my bed.

I groaned, and grabbed my hair in frustration.

"No one fricken gets it!" I mumbled-shouted

I plopped on my bed, and curled up in a ball.

"I'm strong... just like you told me to be, mum. I hope I'm making you proud" I whispered, letting tears run down my face, from the memories.

Why did this have to happen to me... why did my mum have to leave me here like this? Especially at the time I needed her most.

After all the things that have happened to me... I can't help but be strong.

Everything seems like nothing compared to what I have been through.

I let the tears run down my face, and i could only hear my quiet sobs through the quietness of my room.

I'm so lonely... all these friends, money, fans... and I feel nothing but loneliness.

Soon, I drifted in to sleep, awaiting the next day.

"No.. no... NO!" I heard someone scream.

The voice was familiar, but I couldn't identify who exactly it was.

I ran towards it... but realising where I was made me stop in my tracks.

Darkness surrounded me, like I was in a pitch black room, with no endings. I turned around in circles, but I couldn't find an ending to the place I was in.

The place was eerily silent, apart from the constant repeating screams of the word 'no'. It hurt my head... the sound of silence tearing me apart.

I ran towards the scream, and I could finally see a figure of a woman, laying on the floor, with a light faintly illuminating her face.

Is it... mum?

I ran as fast as I could towards her... and it was her.

"M-mum?" I said.

She snapped her head in my direction, and stopped screaming the word she was constantly repeating.

Instead of hugging me, or at least saying my name in happiness as I would have wished, the only look on her face I could decipher was pure rage.

Her breathing was heavy, and her eyes were red and puffy from crying. "WHY DID YOU HAVE TO DO THIS TO ME Y/N?!" She finally screamed.

What have I done?

I could feel the tears stinging my eyes, but I tried my best to hold them in in front of her... I have to show her that I'm strong.