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~ Y/N POV ~

After Changkyun came, everything got worse.

It was quiet for a while, but when he came, something snapped in Yoongi it seemed, because it's like he didn't even care anymore.

He didn't care if Jungkook or Taehyung were with me.

He didn't care if people watched.

He didn't care if T.G knew what he was doing.

Because he and Changkyun started tormenting me.

They never left me alone. Every second they spared, they tried making my life a living hell.

Chankhyun took my spot at the front, and every time I walked over to my spot he'd stick his foot out and I'd splat face first on the floor.

And other things, but that's all I'll mention for now.

It made me feel so numb and broken, I didn't even know what the other kids were thinking.

Normally I would hear their laughter, or at first their gasps. But it all turned silent after a while.

I blocked out everyone and everything around me.

You may be thinking, 'why not tell someone?'. It's because I was scared.

I hated him.

I hated him so much.

But he scared me. He knew so much about everyone. He knew their weaknesses, their strengths, what they loved and what they feared.

Of course he did. It's like he studied people.

If he noticed someone crying, he wouldn't comfort them. He would note how they felt, and would remember the dullness in their eyes.

Then he would remember that dullness, and he could detect in everyone.

He saw the fear in my eyes every time I looked at him.

Even if it were only for a second, he loved it.

He was like those monsters in children's movies that fed on fear, or some shit like that.

But you know what made it worse? It's like I was trapped with him.

Every single lesson he was there. I tried to not notice him.

Ji-Eun was with me. She was with me all the time, and I ignored him to the best of my ability.

But I couldn't.

Ji-Eun helped me through everything, and she always diverted my attention, and distracted me from bad things. She would drag me away from him when she saw him walking toward us.

I loved her for that.

But it obviously wasn't enough.

For the seconds she wasn't there, Changkyun and Yoongi would both run to me. And not in a good way.

I would wake up with tear stained cheeks every morning.

My makeup artist couldn't even tell I had been crying.

How?

How can you not see my swollen eyes, bruises on my face and pain in my eyes?

I couldn't do anything for myself, but it hurt that she couldn't even tell something was up.

Maybe if she did it would have ended quicker. My manager would've known and I could have been pulled out of that dreaded place.

I didn't want to be in their games anymore.

"Y/N? Are you okay?" I snapped out of my thoughts, and wiped the tear rolling down my cheek.

"Huh?"

Ji-Eun sighed and turned to Jungkook and Taehyung.

Oh yeah.

I forgot to say, but they're finally talking. Jungkook and Taehyung had gone to her first to our surprise, and they apologised.

It was heartwarming, because anyone could see their sincerity.

It brought tears to Ji-Euns eyes.

We all had a little group hug after that happened, because I was getting pretty emotional too.

"Guys, we need to do something about Changkyun. We can't let her go through all that!" Ji-Eun said to Jungkook and Taehyun, trying to avoid me from hearing her.

She was like.. loud whispering.

"Yeah, but before Changkyun came, us being around her was enough for Yoongi to back off. I would never imagine him punching someone in front of me. I just- what are we going to do?" Jungkook said, tired.

There was a pause among us.

Not a peaceful pause.

Not an awkward pause.

Just a pause, filled with so much confusion and sadness.

"Um.. i know you guys might not like this, but, what if T.G talked to Yoongi. Like tell him to stop. I know it didn't really work at first, but it has to. It's our last chance. And even if Changkyun doesn't stop, at least Yoongi will"

I let out a shaky sigh, "I don't know"

Ji-Eun rubbed her forehead, looking at the time. "We have 10 minutes before class starts. But, it's really up to Y/N. Are you okay to do that? It might work."

I don't know.

Should I?

A/N
This is rlly short but I want to finish this book soon.
Idk. I feel like this story is just getting worse.

Uhh.. question!

How do you feel about the Halsey and BTS collaboration?

My answer: I think it's rlly exciting and I like Halsey, but I think it shouldn't be their title track? I've seen a few new army a bit sad, as it's their first comeback with BTS, and they feel it won't be as special. Yeah, I'm personally very excited though.