I act like I'm not afraid
When in reality I'm terrified.
What I'm not scared of
Now
Is exposure.
I've thought about it so often
Getting them what the deserve.
But only after a nightmare
Or an anxiety attack.
Only after feeling my guts turn
After being yelled at.
But being afraid
Doesn't make me weak.
And being prepared,
Though I shouldn't have to be,
Shows my strength.
