Changed/solby

part 3

Does anyone else get really high anxiety watching sam and colbys videos or is it just me.
Sam's p.o.v.
"Sam"
Oh god I hope he didn't see....
"Colby...." I said slowly
"I'm sorry about the prank...."
We sat awkwardly
"Its fine" i said not looking at him
"Are we good..." I took a minute. I know i can't be mad at him forever could I?
"I guess...."
"Ok...."
Again awkward
"I um have a few things I have to do I'll catch up with you later?" I have a small smile and nod
"Ok ya "
Thank God he didnt see....
I go in my room. What am I supposed to do with my life.
I decided to call Kat up. I should talk to her...
After a few short rings she answered
"Hey Kat"
"Hi sam..."
"Uh could you stop by later" she didn't say anything for a few seconds
"Uh ya sure "
We said our goodbyes and now we wait. I threw on a hoodie so she wouldn't see my marks I feel bad I've been open to her about everything well almost everything.
What seemed like eternity. She called me to let me know she was here i ran downstairs to let her in. she hugged me as well started walking to my room. I can't believe I am coming out to Kat....
We sat on my bed
"OK what's going on sammy"
"What d-do you mean" i asked
"Your being weird you haven't talked to me since the prank."
"I think we need to break up"
Was all I said before looking down. I've been with this girl for 3 years. I could hear her heart shattering. but I couldn't feel anything.
"W-why.. was it the prank because i said I'm sorry sam don't leave me I love you" she starts to cry and all I did was hug her. she calmed down after a few minutes
"I believe we should be honest in relationships and...."
"I am honest sam. i tell you everything"
"I know I know it doesnt have to do with you...." Her face dropped when i said that
"I've been keeping something huge from you..."
"What is it..."
"I....I'm bisexual"
Well.
There it is.
Its out.
I'm out.
"Sam that changes absolutely nothing. I kinda always have had a feeling"
"I'm really sorry to do this to you.... Trust me its hard on me also" I looked down at my hands
No its not
We sat in silence for ever as the words soaked in.
"So you broke up with me because your bisexual?"
"No no no. i just feel like things changed i mean you got the new job and have been busy with music. I'm busy with my job trying to make content nothing is like what it used to be. you changed we've.  changed. "
She nodded
"I've been feeling the same way".
Again we sit in silence as she pulled me into a hug this time I started crying I'm not sure why.
"I'm glad you told me sam and I hope one day In the future we can be friends again"
"You are the only person who knows please don't tell anyone" She pulled away
"I won't you can trust me" after a while she decides to head home. I bury my head in my pillow and screamed not caring who heard. im just so angry that things just changed and I fell out of love with this girl.
Oh God what am i going to tell the house
What am I going to tell colby
Oh my lord with about the fans
I started to breath heavy and felt like I might cry my hands went numb I started shaking.
Oh great a panic attack just what I fucking need.
There was a knock on the door.
I stopped what i was doing
"sam its colby....can i come in..."
Not what i fucking need right now.
I don't say anything hoping he got the hint.
But colby being the dumbass that he is didn't and came in anyway when he saw the state i was in he came running in and sat next to me
"What's wrong sam whats going on!?"
"I'm just having a panic attack I'm fine" I managed to say
"What do you need what do you want me to do "
"Just hold me please...." My heart was shattered in a million pieces what am i going to do now. Kat was all i ever known.
Colby did what I asked and held me tight and didn't let go. I felt my eye lids grow heavy after a while of cuddling and i fell asleep in colbys arms.
Honestly Kat is the best person ever. I love seeing videos with her and sam they are so cute. anyone else agreed? Also wow 2 updates in one day. look at me go i promise you this will not happen often.