Changed/solby

part 4

NOTE I changed the book title that's all I wanted to say. Enjoy!
Colby's p.o.v.
I was at Brennans place he wanted me to film a video with him I've been here pretty much all day. My phone went off while i was in the middle of the video i checked it
From Kat-
Please check on sam.
To Kat -
Why what happened is he OK?
I started to worry thoughts over took me as i tried to figure out what it was.
"Hey man you OK you zoned out "
"Uh ya I'm fine"
From kat-
I think you should just check on him its not really my place to say but I'm worried about him
"Hey bren can we do this another time I have to check on something"
"Is everything OK?" I shook my head
"I uh don't know "
"OK man text me" I nod as I rush out of his apartment and head home. I ran through the doors ignoring aaron who was in the kitchen. I got to sam's room i heard him crying my heart broke. I knocked on the door
"Sam can I come in" I didn't hear anything. I came in anyway.
Sam was on his bed rocking back and forth his hands were shaking and he sounded like he was having a hard time catching his breath I sat down next to him in a panick
"Are you ok !?"
"Im just having a panic attack I'm fine..." He said i didn't believe him. He wasn't OK.
"What do you need me to do" I said calming down knowing he wasn't dying
"Just hold me " was all he said. I did as he asked and crawled next to him pushing his light body over just a tad i wrapped my arms around his waist And he sunk into me. soon his body became limp in my arms.
Indicated he fell asleep. I ran my hair through his blonde hair i couldn't help it. I felt so bad for him he's hurting and I don't even know what happened
Maybe him and Kat broke up
Then you could date him finally
my thoughts stopped I looked around his room not knowing what else to do. I spotted something I didn't want to see. a knife was thrown across his room. I swallowed a lump in my throat.
He would never. he was wearing my now or never sweatshirt. I pulled his sleeve up just a tad.
I didn't see anything I pulled it back down. I don't know why I'm looking for...you know.. I know he has have problems before with having thoughts about slef harming but he promised he'd always come to me or Kat if he ever got thoughts like those and i always talked him out of his negative thoughts. I pulled up his other sleeve. And there it was. something I didn't want to see
5 or 6 cuts on his arm. tears fell on my cheeks and i held my breath not wanting to wake him. i pulled his sleeve back down and held his hand
This is my fault
I silently cried myself to sleep after that.
I woke up to sam on his phone. his cheeks turned a slight pink
"Morning colbs"
"Morning" I said still a little tired. i rubbed my eyes
"What time is it?"
"Uh 10 why?"
I groaned I told Brennen I'd finish that video with him.
I really didn't want to go.
I'm just going to go MIA for a bit.
"No worry. so what happened last night?" His eyes turned dark.
"Uh kat and I broke up" he said showing no emotions this was a surprise to me. but secretly it made me happy. I could finally get my chance.
"What why?"
His whole body tense up
He's hiding something.
"Things just changed " he looked away which he does when he doesn't want to tell the truth
"What really happened sam. your hiding something"
Sam got off his bed still looking at me
"No I'm not Colby i tell you everything"
Again. he looks away.
"You look away every time you lie. what are you hiding sam why can't you tell me?" I was honestly hurt. he used to tell me everything and one day he just well. changed.
He was hurting I knew he wanted to tell me but he had his gard up. I walked over to him and it was just us facing each other. his breath hitting my bottom lip i wanted to kiss him. I stopped myself.
"What are you hiding from me Samuel" I growled. I was getting annoyed. he tensed up again. avoiding eye contact. "look at me and tell me"
Before I said anything else a pair of lips connect with mine.