My Rebel With a Halo

Chapter 26

Justin's POV

I sat in the complete darkness and silence of my living room. Once it started to get night out, I didn't even bother to turn the lights on. My eyes were red from the crying I had done due to the guilt I felt inside. I didn't know what to do. This was the first time I'd gone through shit like this. All I knew, was that Selena didn't deserve any of this. I couldn't even begin to imagine what she may be feeling right now.

I leaned forward, covering my face with my hands as I groaned angrily. I wanted Selena in my arms, where she belonged. Not wherever else she decided to go.

I took my face out of my hands once I heard the front door unlock and open.

"Jesus, why is it so dark?" My mom said closing the door behind her. She walked a few steps before switching the light on.

I cringed at the light, rubbing my eyes.

"Hey honey how was your day? Are you done packing?" My mom greeted me.

"No." I simply said.

My mom went into the kitchen for a few seconds and came back out with a glass of water. She took a sip and looked at me closely. "Is everything okay? W-Why are your eyes red? Have you been smoking weed in my-"

"No mom! I haven't smoked here." I sighed. "I fucked up mom." My voice shook. I leaned back covering my face. "I fucked up so bad."

"Sweetie what happened?" My mom worriedly asked me, as I stood up.

"I just want to be alone right now if that's okay. Thanks mom." I gave her a half smile and proceeded up the stairs to my room. At that very moment I heard the door knock.

'Could it be Selena?' I hurried back down and watched my mom open the door.

"Ryan! I'm so glad you're here." My mom said.

"Hey Pattie." Ryan smiled. "Is Justin here?"

I sighed and walked right back up the stairs to my room. Seconds later, Ryan came in.

"Yo you haven't finished packing? We're moving tomorrow, what's the hold up?"

I lied face down on my bed and groaned.

"Now's not the time to be lazy Justin." Ryan sighed taking a box and started throwing things in it from my closet.

"She's gone man." I whined.

"What?" Ryan yelled from my closet.

I sat up on my matress. "She's fucking gone and it's all my fault."

Ryan came out and looked at me. "Who's gone?"

"Selena."

"What? What the hell are you talking about?"

"SHE SAW THE VIDEO FROM JASON'S PARTY!" I stood up pacing back forth frantically.

"The one you hid from her?!"

"YES I UNDERSTAND I HID IT FROM HER." I raised my voice unexpectedly.

"How'd she find it?!"

"I was cleaning out my closet and it fell out and I was looking at it and then she came out of the bathroom and saw me but I hid it from her and then we fucked and I took a nap and she woke up and-" I was talking so fast and walking back and forth so fast that I had to stop to take a deep breath. "And she saw it."

"Fuck man!" Ryan cringed. "And then what happened?"

"She said she couldn't even look at me. She started crying and yelling." I ran my hand through my hair in frustration.