Bullied By B5

I can't do this

Three weeks later...

December 4th

Diamond's P.O.V

We just recently celebrated Carnell's birthday on the 30th, and after the party, Patrick caught me puking in the toilet. I just simply told him I felt a little sick and he believed me. He made me tea, gave me a back rub which I needed so badly with this damn pregnancy, fed me soup, just anything to make me feel better. And I did feel a little better. I can't keep lying to him though. Still only Tammy and my mom knows about the pregnancy, no one else.

My mom said only a month, but she's still over in Kentucky. She calls once in a while though to check up on me and to see how the pregnancy is going. She claims all of the work she saved to her computer was somehow deleted or got lost so she has to start all over.

Anthony...

Ever since I told him I wasn't keeping the baby, he hasn't spoken to me nor took one look at me. And for some reason...I kinda feel some type of way. I have urges to text him or to go over and talk to him when he's alone.

No matter how many times I tell myself I don't have feelings for him, my mind keeps bringing him back to thought. And in all honestly...I kinda miss him.

Diamond's House

12:02 AM

"So when do you plan to get the abortion?" Tammy asked me in a low volume, but I still managed to hear.

"I was thinking about today. Ya'know, when like all the guys are occupied somewhere else, and Owen is over Ms. Adrian's house. I'm kinda nervous about it though."

"Oh ok. What if Patrick calls you, where would you say we were?" Tammy questioned. We did have to plan this whole lie up.

"Uh, I don't know. You think of something." My brain was not working when it came to that question.

"Let's just say we went to go get manicures or something, and after the abortion we actually go get one so Patrick nor Dustin can know they were lied to." Tammy suggested.

"And that's why you're my best friend." I smiled. Tammy laughed.

"Oh, whatever."

Tammy and I ambled downstairs, and sat on the couch. Tam grabbed the remote, turned the TV on, then flipped through channels.

In the process, Patrick walked through the front door holding Owen in his arms. Dustin, Carnell and Kelly trailed in after.

"Aye wassup girls." They greeted.

"Hey."

Dustin sauntered over to Tammy and gave her a kiss. Patrick sat Owen in his sit-n-bounce then came to sit beside me. "Hey babe. How are you doing?"

Oh my God. Whenever he asks that I feel like he knows already. What if he does but pretends he doesn't?

"I'm great. Never been better." I smiled. He kissed me and I looked over at Owen. "How was your little stay with daddy?" I smiled at him. Owen giggled and started bouncing repeatedly.

"He had fun. Well, we." Patrick smiled. Seeing his smile felt so depressing now. Because if or when he finds out I'm pregnant and it's not his...I may never see that smile again. So, I guess I'll just soak it all in while I can.

1 Hour Later...

While the guys were watching the game, Tammy and I dressed ourselves then prepared to head out. We ambled down the stairs then headed to the door but stopped abruptly.

"Where are you guys going?" Kelly asked. This made Patrick and Dustin break their necks. They looked at us and raised an eyebrow, obviously wanting to know the answer too.

"We're going to get manicures." Tammy answered. Thank God.

"Oh ok. When will y'all be back?" Dustin asked.

"We don't know, it depends." With that, we hurried and left the house before they could ask anymore questions.

We hopped in my car, and went to the bank to take the couple hundred out of my account. Then I drove to the clinic. When I pulled in to the parking lot, I got nervous. My hands started to shake, but not too much.

We made entry through the doors and checked in. The reception woman at the desk gave me the papers to fill out and a pen. Tammy and I walked into the waiting area and sat in the blue chairs.

Anxiety began to rule over me. Just plain eating me alive. I exhaled deeply. When I began to sign my name to the paper, my hands shook rapidly, causing me to scribble a bit. It felt like they were numbing up.

"Are you okay, D?" Tammy asked, worried from my actions. Tears began to come down.

"Tammy...I can't do this." I shook my head crying. "I can't get the abortion." Tammy rubbed my back, comforting me.

"How will you explain this to Patrick, Diamond?"

"I'll figure out a way, but I just can't do this." I sat the papers down then exited the building. Tammy trailed behind.

I can't kill this innocent fetus. I'm keeping the baby.