Smoke my dope

not everythings Gucci

Me and Gazzy spend out last day together at the hotel. It was just me and him, everyone else had decided to go shopping or whatever so we stayed in.

Gazzy was currently on the phone to someone. He was speaking spanish so i assumed it was him mom so i didn't listen in. He came out of the kitchen and walked into the bedroom, he lay on the bed beside me and i cuddled into his side.

"Estoy con Alzen ahora mismo" he said. I heard talking on the other side of the phone.
(Im with Alzen right now)

He handed me the phone and smiled. "She wants to speak too you" he said. I raised my eyebrows.

"Hello?" I asked as i took the phone.

"So you're the girl thats sending my son loca" she said in a thick accent. I laughed.

"a veces es al revés" i told her. She laughed.
(Sometimes its the other way around)

"I can imagine, Gazzy tells me good things about you bonita" she said. I looked at him and smiled.
(Pretty)

"Lo criaste bien, señorita García" i said smiling. He smiled too and pulled me into him.
(You raised him well, Miss García)

We spoke for another few minuets before i passed the phone to Gazzy who also said goodbye. After Gazzy tossed his phone away he rolled over so he hovered above me. He leaned down and kissed me.

"How did your mom give birth to both Danny and someone as beautiful as you" he said joking. I burst out laughing.

"Hay, all my mothers kids are beautiful, Danny just ruined himself with all them face tattoos." I said.

"I aint even remember him without face tattoos." He said.

"Like people dont remember you without yours?" I said. He smirked at me and shook his head.

"Im still pretty tho right?" He asked flashing his braces. I made a face at him and shook my head.

"Aww babe, who told you that?" I asked laughing. He made a playful angry face and then dove between my shoulder and head biting me. "Im kinding" i laughed. Trying to push him seay. He stopped biting and started laying soft kisses ok my neck. My eyes fluttered shut.

Gazzy always smelled like syrup and weed and expensive cologne. It was a mixture that made my heart race. His lips were always soft although sometimes i would get nipped by his braces. Not that i minded, it kinda turned me on. Soon he moved to my lips. I was pretty sure he left my neck looking like a vampire feast.

I held the back of his head as he kissed me, our mouths moving in sync with eachother. Every touch sending electicity though my body. His hands held the skin at my hips as he slowly dragged his hands up pushing my t shirt with them before grabbing my breast.

I quickly pulled away, pushing him and shaking my head. Gazzy went red, i put my hand on his cheek.

"Gazzy..." i was about to say but he cut me off.

"Nah, im sorry, i should have asked" he said getting up.

"No,Gazzy wait" i said but he was already in the toilet.

I wanted to explain to him, i wanted to tell him why i wasn't rushing this but i was scared he would see me diffrent, that i wasn't enough.

Gazzy came out like 20 minuets later. I couldnt read what he was feeling. His face was blank. I got of the bed and followed him to the kitchen. I went to touch his arm but he pulled it away. He went into the frige and pulled out a bottle of sprite and lean that Purp left here earlier.

"Gazzy please let me explain." I said. He turned to me.

"You dont gotta Zen. You dont trust me right, you dont wanna rush things because you think im gonna fuck up and hurt you RIGHT! You don't wanna do shit with me because you're scared that ALL IM DOING IS USING YOU FOR SEX RIGHT. Dont worry. I got the fucking picture." He said turning back round. He poured a drink and left the room.

I wanted to go after him and tell him that wasn't the case. I wanted to tell him the truth but i couldn't, i was scared yes. But not that he would hurt me. Tears fell from my eyes. I slid down the fridge door onto the floor and cried.

I dont cry alot. I dont. Living a life i did before Danny made it, crying was weak. And i wasnt weak, but for some reason, Gazzy is my weakness.

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I sat packing all my things. I wasn't supposed to leave till tomorrow but i thought since it had been two hours and Gazzy still hadnt come back it was best if i got Danny to pick me up. I didn't wanna leave but Kerr said she already went home after the show the night before since X had left.

I got to the lobby with my case when eveyone came back. Including Gazzy. His face dropped when he saw me. I checked my phone as it buzzed.

6I9 6roth9r: im just parking be there in a second.

Me: hurry please!!!

"Where are you going?" Gazzy asked coming up to me. His eyes were dark brown. He had been taking shit. This made it even harder to leave.

"Home Gazzy. I thought id let you calm down, give eachother some breathing space" i said lowering my head.

"Dont go Zen, im sorry about all that a'ite, i just dont wanna loose what we have" he said lifting my head with his fingers. I shook my head.

"What is that Gazzy? Me and you, we live diffrent lives. I want to be this normal kid but i got all this going on around me. You're diffrent from me. You want the attention. You crave it. I could never give you what you're looking for" i said as a tear dropped from my face. Gazzy wiped it away.

"You're everything to me Zen. Literally. Please dont leave me, im sprry for shouting and fucking up, ill make it up to you" he said. His voice sounded like it was gonna crack.

"ALZEN" Danny shouted from the doors.

"Im sorry Gazzy.i dont wanna loose you or leave you but I have too. You got so much going on and im just another distraction." i said pecking him on the cheek.

He grabbed my hand as i walked away, i could see the pain in his eyes. Danny looked like he was gonna fight him until he saw his face. "Please" Gazzy begged. It broke my heart as i shook my head. He dropped his hand and i ran to Daniel.

I didnt dare look back. But i could feel Gazzys eyes burning through me.

The last thing i wanted to do was leave him, but it was all i could think of. One of us was bound to get hurt at some point. I knew it was better cutting things now rather than later.

"You a'ite?" Danny asked. I nodded as he hugged me into him. I held on to him for dear life. How could i be like this? Over Lil fucking Pump. "C'mon lets get you home" Danny said as we walked away.

That was when it hit me. I was in love with Gazzy.