Alzen Hernandez is the Little sister of Tekashi 6ix 9ine. she wasnt one to enjoy the lifestyle that he lived until she met Lil Pump aka Gazzy Garcia at one of her brothers shows.
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I started writing this story before X passed, this book is set i...
Purp: no one knows yet. Has anyone heard from ski?
Boat: nah but Cleo is at the hospital
Kerr: im thinking of all you guys 😢. X is gonna be good, hes a stong guy.
Pump: thanks Kerr 💙
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I just turned my phone off. Kerr, Brain and others i know were blowing my shit up and i couldn't find the strength to answer them. I hated this situation. Me and Gazzy were on the couch in silence, it had been over an hour since we heard anything.
Purp came over and was in the kitchen making food for us since he or Gazzy hadn't ate since the day before. I dont think i could eat. My mind hadn't left Jahseh. I had been praying to myself for about 20 minutes.
"Come here" Gazzy said. I crawled onto the spare space between his arm and side. As soon as he held me i cried. He sighed and kissed the top of my head.
"Im so sorry Gazzy" i said wanting to slowly fade away and be forgotten. I hated this feeling. Its like an emptyness that i cant explain. Like someones taken a part of me and its been missinng for a long time.
It usually comes in spurts. I have good days where i smile and mean it. But my bad days kill me. I feel worthless and sad. I think of all the wrong ive ever done and i never try and fix it. I slowly destroy my self esteem and hope one day ill wake up and it will be back but i still smile through it. Othger nights i go to bed hoping i dont wake up.
"Shh, its ok. deja de llorar, bebe, por favor" he whispered. (Stop crying, baby, please)
"Gazzy, te lastimé, ¿cómo puedes siquiera mirarme?" I cried. (Gazzy, i hurt you, how can you even look at me?)
He just pulled me onto his lap like a child and held me into his chest. I cried myself to sleep on his chest, his streangth always managed to amaze me. Purp had come back with food and a beer each for them. I just stayed stuck to Gazzys chest like a sloth to a tree.
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I woke up lying on the couch with a pillow and a blanket, it was dark outside now, my eyes stung as they adjusted to the lights in the house. Gazzy was on the couch across from me watching me. His eyes were all red and puffy, he had his hands. I took a deep breath before asking what was wrong. I knew Gazzy was an emotional person behind all the fame. He looked at me as a tear dropped from his eye. I was scared his reaction was over Jah.
"Baby, whats happened?" I asked sitting up.
"Alzen" he said sniffing. I walked over to him and he stood up. He grabbed me and held me for dear life. I wrapped my arms around his shoulder and held him back.
"Gazzy whats going on?" I asked again almost crying at the sight of my boyfriend. I burried my headninto the crook of his neck.
"Jahs gone Zen" he said before breakin down. His cries bacame louder as i held him. "Ski just d...did a live and... Jahs gone" he cried hard. I didn't cry, i just nodded and held him into me.
I thought if this was the outcome i would be on the floor taking an anxiaty attack and screaming bloody mary. But i wasnt. Without the pun, i felt numb.
I couldnt process it. I just stood there as Gazzy cried on my shoulder. Who would have thought.
The last thing i remember saying to Jah about was something along the lines of "when you get to New York, Me and you are gonna blow the mic out the fucking booth."
The last thing he ever said to me was "zen dont ever let anyone change you girl. I love and appreciate you"
"Where is Omar?" I asked. Gazzy wiped his eyes and looked at me.
"Sleeping upstairs." He said. "Zen? Are you ok?" He asked. I looked at him and nodded my head before walking away.
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Liked by lilyachty, nojumper and 664,892 others LilZenSmiles i cant believe you're gone Jahseh, i cant believe i will never get to see you smile again , or talk about random shit and ill never get to joke around with you, ski, purp and Gazzy. Through the short 10 months that i knew you personaly you were like a brother to me, you always held me close in your circle and i will forever appreciate that, you helped guide me so much. You were too good for this world anyway big bro. My thoughts go out to his family. Im not saying his friends or fans because if you fucked with X in any way you were family too him. The world wont be the same without you. Im gonna make you proud. Im gonna do everything we spoke about for you Jahseh. The music we planned and life plans we made. Im gonna watch over everyone down here while you do it up there. I love you brother. Thank you for everything. 6ix9ine 💯 RIP X Theslumpgod hes always going to be with us now Zen. He loved you like a lil sister too. Lilzensmiles @theslumpgod keep your head up high stokeley. He wasnt X without you. View all 80,327 Comments
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A/N: sorry this chapter took so long and its kinda short. Ive been really busy with college and some personal issues came up too. I was suposed to post this on friday but here it is now.
