Smoke my dope

no mo hoes

The next morning everyone left about 5am. I went back to the room and crawled into bed beside Gazzy. I tried not to touch him or wake him. He rolled over and pulled me into him.

"Im sorry" he mumbled.

"Its ok, i was just worried about you" i said holding his arms and lasing my fingers through them as we spooned. He kissed my shoulder and lay his chin on it.

"You know i care about you alot right?" He said. I nodded and pulled one of his hands up to my lips and kissed it.

"I care about you too Gazzy, you just have to stop pushing me away" i said. He nodded. We both lay quietly, i could tell Gazzy wasn't used to being like this with a woman. I mean i know he has so many girls at his fingers but he wasn't used to caring about them.

We both eventually drifted off lying in each others arms. I knew i was in a position to change Gazzys view of woman. I wasnt asking Gazzy to change, i wanted to help be more comfortable to be a normal kid, he doesn't know how to treat this life because he was flung into it without any help. I was willing to be the one to expand his view of life. I was falling for him. I couldn't ever have guessed that i would be layed here in a hotel with lil pump, who isnt the guy the media sees. This is the real Gazzy Garcia. The one that had empithy and alot of love.

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When i woke up Gazzy was already gone. He probably had things to do. I sat up in the bed and checked the time. It was only 9am. I looked around to see if there was any signs of Gazzy being here. He wasn't. The room was quiet. I got up and went to the bathroom.

I washed up and brushed my hair. I got my bag and did quick make up look and got dressed. I found my phone and checked it. I couldn't be bothered to reply to anyone but i had a text from Gazzy.

My Gaz🥀🤞: Morning 💘 come to Jah's room when you get this.

Me: im coming now

My Gaz🥀🤞: 💘

Me: 😙😙😙

I walked out the room and locked the door before going to Jah's room. Kerr stayed there last night, Daniel and Sara ended up getting an uber home with Brian at like 4.30am. Brain was angry with me because i shouted at him for drinking all that lean he was. He should have knew better than to drink that shit.

I walked in and everybody was there chilling around the sofas. X, Ski, Purp, Kerr, Gazzy, Adam from no jumper who was filming. Gazzy's face lit up when i walked in.

"Aye theres my lady, ESKETIT" He said as adam filmed him and panned the canera on me.

"Dont film me i look a mess" i said laughing and covering my face. Gazzy got up and walked over to me. I looked in his eyes. Dark blue. He was sober. He planted a kiss on my lips and leaned me back like they did in old movies. He tasted like a mixture of Soda and Weed.

"Aww, Pump got a girlfriend." Ski teased.

"I fucking wish." He said making me blush. I took Gazzys hand as he lead me over to the couch.

"What is the deal with you? Are you dating or what?" Adam asked. I looked at Gazzy who smiled.

"ADAM, Yall about to get an exclusive. He said pointing to the camera. The whole room was quiet.

"A'ite i know i been sayin' im all about these bitches and hoes but i gotta come clean. This girl is my world right now. She helped me realise something. I...I need to be more like me. And i been lying to every one. See. Im really a virgin" he said at the end of it. He burst into laughter as did alot of people.

"Nah, nah. Honestly. Were just enjoying the company of eachother now" he said pulling me close. I smiled and layed my head on his shoulders.

"So whats the plan? Are we going to head out soon?" Ski asked X.

"Yeah we gotta get back" he said.

"You guys aren't staying for the other show?" I asked them.

"I cant i got the studio booked tonight" Ski tokd me.

"I got things to do. Sorry Zen" X said. I nodded.

"It's ok" i said smiling. I looked ar Kerr who was siting beside Jah. She looked sad. Jah looked down at her then took her hand and smiled. I smiled too. I think Jah and Kerr would be so fucking cute.

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We were at the second show. Lil Pump was playing and every person in the crowd sang. Sometimes i need to remember that he isnt Gazzy to them. He's an artist,and they beg to be let into his life like i am. I would say im blessed. But i have already been blessed. i always thought Daniel getting famous was my blessing but i was wrong.

Gazzy entered my life and although our moments felt like fleeting glimpses i knew he was my blessing. He came into my life and opened up to me. He created a bond. One i knew would last a life time. Even if things never worked out for us as a couple, i would never want to spend a moment without Gazzy around.

I wached him. His movements on the stage, how these people would remember this forever. This 17 year old boy, who crashed into they're lifes too. How his actions were being watched closely by them. How they saw him like i did. Pure.

"A'ite i wanna say something. I gotta tell yall motherfuckers. Yo. Lil Pump ain't messing with nooooo more bitches" he said. I pressed my lips together.

The crowed screamed.

"Lil Pump is, is done with bitches, hoes, no more thots becausese Lil Pump got himself a fucking wifey" he said.

The crowed screamed again. LOUDER.

"Yeah i got myself a baddie. She got a nigga goin' crazy out here" he shouted into the mic. The place shook with roars and screams.

"DJ PLAY THAT SHIT" he shouted. Crazy came on. I laughed. He was an asshole. He was My Gaz tho.

I watched him as he finished his set. He came off stage, ran away to get changed and came back like 20 seconds later, he was changed into a whole knrw outfit. He kissed me as soon as he saw me.

"I ment what i said out there. Im done with 'em Zen." He said. I looked in his eyes. Dark blue. Shit he was sober.

"Gazzy you cant promise me that. Youre on tour. Im not asking you to" i said. He shook his head.

"They can be waiting because none of em are you. They aint you" he said sniling and kissing ne again. I smiled back.

"Come on. Let's go home yeah" he said. I nodded. It was only 11pm. But it would be late before we got back to the hotel. It was 4 hours away. I was ready to sleep now.

We had one more day before gazzy had to leave and i wanted to spend every second holding him, he was right. I didnt know when i would see him again but i knew it wouldnt be any time soon.

We got in the van with Purp and some of the guys. Everyone was sleepy because they were all on come downs from the show. I lay my head on Pumps shoulders and drifted off