You can Johnny my Knoxville Anyday (Johnny Knoxville Love story)

Chapter 24

"I'm not crazy" I muttered as I sat on the couch, with my dumbass friends standing around. "No you're right, the drugs just totally killed off like a million brain cells" Bam said angrily. I shook my head as the tears ran down my face. "You guys wouldn't understand, so why should I explain" I said with venom in my voice. "M we'll try as best as we can" Ryan said softly. I nodded slowly and looked up at them. "Have you guys ever heard of people making up a totally life up in their minds when they're in a long term coma?" I asked them quietly. They shrugged and looked at me to go on. "In my mind I actually was something, not your everyday drug addict. I was married and I had a son. My baby." I said to them. "And now he's gone" I wailed loudly as I put my head in my hands. I felt a pair of arms wrap around me and by the smell of their cologne I knew it was Bam. "M he isn't real" he said quietly. "Don't you see Bam, he was to me." I said with a heavy voice and tear streaked face. "Miranda one day you'll have a son and you'll have Trevor all over again. Just give it time" he said softly. I nodded and wiped my eyes. "Now give me the drugs" he said harder this time. "Alright" I mumbled as I walked upstairs to retrieve the bag. I took out the razor and carefully poured some of the drugs into my compact for safe keeping. He was so gullible. I walked back downstairs and handed him to bag. "And the razor" he said sternly. I groaned and stomped upstairs. I grabbed the razor roughly and managed to cut my hand pretty deeply. By time I got down to them I had a pool of blood in my hand. "Holy shit Miranda!!" Rake yelled as he grabbed my hand and ran me into the kitchen. "I can do it myself" I muttered as he washed off my hand. He smiled lightly at me and shook his head. "You've never been good at cleaning up your cuts" he said as he wrapped it up in gauze. "Thanks Rake" I said as I hugged him. "Oh course Murry" he said as he hugged me back. We walked back into the living room where all the guys were sitting. Rake sat down and continued to stand. "Listen guys I'm sorry." I said which was pretty damn hard. All their eyes got wide as they looked at each other. "Did the one and only Miranda "the man" Panazza just say sorry?" Raab said in awe. "Yah, I can own up to my major fuck ups" I said with a small smile. "I think this calls for a group hug!!" Ryan yelled loudly. And before I knew it I was tackled in a huge hug from the people I loved most in this world. "Thanks for forgiving me" I said into the hug. They all yelled and hugged me tighter. After our little hug I headed up to the room I was sleeping in a laid down. We all had an early morning tomorrow. The flight we had to catch was at 7 am tomorrow and it was an hour drive there. As I was about to pass out I heard my door open. In the dark I saw Bam coming over to my bed. I flicked on the lamp and looked at him. "What's up?" I asked him with a smile. "Miranda you do know you're going to have to tell Johnny" he said as he laid down next to me. "I figured" I sighed loudly. "He'll understand. He's a good guy" he reassured. I nodded and looked at him. "Night Bam Bam" I said and went to turn off the light. "Night Murr" he said as pulled the covers over himself. This is something we did when the other was upset. We've done this ever since we were 4 years old. Yah we'd known each other for a long ass time. What are best friends for.