You can Johnny my Knoxville Anyday (Johnny Knoxville Love story)

chapter 29

"I'm gonna miss Maddie" I sighed after Mel picked her up and it was now just Johnny and I. "I'm going to miss her too and I can tell she already adores you" Johnny assured me before kissing me tenderly. "I hope so" I sighed before plopping down on the couch. "I know so" he said as he plopped down next to me and laid his head on my chest. Even though I know the baby technically wasn't even a "baby" yet it still made me nervous, him being so close to my stomach area. I ran my fingers through his dark hair as I contemplated how I was going to tell him. "Johnny?" I said quietly. "Hmmmm" he mumbled incoherently. "I love you" I said quietly, not saying what I really wanted to say. "I love you too, baby" he said and leaning up and kissing me gently. I sighed into the kiss and laid my head back down. The silence waas ruined by a series of yelling and heavy footsteps. "Sounds like the guys are here" I groaned as they talked loudly. "Oh joy" Johnny said sarcastically as he got up and walked towards the noise.  I sat up as well, but as soon as I sat up I started feeling sick. I high tailed it to the bathroom and released into the toilet. It had been 3 weeks since Johnny's party and I've just been getting sicker and sicker. Being pregnant is miserable, and I have 9 more months of this torture. "Baby" Johnny said concerned from the other side of the door. "Fine" I groaned as I threw up again. I didn't sound fine right now. "I don't think so" Johnny said as he walked into the bathroom. I sighed and wiped off my mouth while leaning back on the cool toilet. "I'll be fine" I said as I began to sit up, but I could't because I began to feel nauseous again. I instantly fell back to the ground and threw up once again. "M" Johnny yelled in alarm and dropped back down next to me. "It must just be the flu or something" I said unconvincingly. "M" he said warning. I sighed and looked at my hands. "You can tell can't you?" I asked quietly. "Miranda I dealt with a pregnant woman before" he sighed as he sat down next to me. "I'm sorry" I said, my bottom lip trembling. "For what, baby?" Johnny asked as he wrapped his arm around my shoulders and pulling me closer to him. "I didn't mean to" I sobbed. "Miranda this is a great thing!! We're having a baby!!" he said excitely. I shook my head quickly as the tears fell faster. "Johnny, don't you understand? I'm not meant to be a mom, I can't even take care of myself!!" I sobbed. Johnny's nostils flared for a second and he had rage in his eyes. "This is our child, how could you not want it?" he asked angrily."Because Johnny I'm just not ready"