8/18/18
"School, here I come.
And I know that I'm not the only one,That is beyond covered in fear of the uncertain gun.I'm scared of all the names that people might call me.I'm scared that they'll play games that I don't quite fancy, Something that would go completely over my head.I'm just an underprepared tool inside the shed.I've been broken and overused.So why am I so scared of going back to school?Why should I even bother when it's nothing so new?Well, middle school wasn't the best,I wasn't bullied but everyday felt like a test.My grades suck, I couldn't focused, and even if I got an 95/100 I wasn't impressed.All of my anxiety couldn't be suppressed,And my emotions were in a total wreck.Nothing could get into my mind and stick--Only the hostility temptations of those that I'm with.People make me afraid,I don't know how to be brave,When I'm stuck with no air conditioning in the multi-floor building of fakeness and drama. I promise I'm not some comic saying the protagonist's lines,But ain't none of this is totally fine,Most kids in school don't know how to keep their mouth shut.I had someone talk sh*t about me--I didn't even know who they was.I never talked to them, I wasn't their loyal.They were grades above me, you'd think I've known them?Fear has two meanings:F*ck everything and run,Or,Face everything and rise,But I don't know how to fight,I don't want to be the center of attention,I know I need some morality lessons.I need better goals and have some confidence,But man I'm scared about the different types of repercussions and,I don't wanna end up in a world full with everyone hating me.
I just need to release all of these thoughts that constantly haunt me.
I'm sorry."
- Novice_Key
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