Secrets ~ Minizerk

Chapter 7 - Wednesday

A/N Kinda short the next few chapter should be longer though

~Warning~ censored homophobic language so if you are triggered by either probably don't read this. Stay safe friends

Josh's POV:

Today is only my third day of being at this school but I'm enjoying it so much. Vik, JJ, Ethan and Simon are all so nice and funny. I really appreciate them taking me in kind of.

I haven't told any of them and I'm not going to not yet anyway. I know it's invertible, but I'm really going to try and hide it for as long as possible. Obviously I know they would be kind and understanding but I'm not ready to risk it all again.

I signed myself up for this school so I put down that my preferred name is Josh not Joshua but teachers still Calle me Joshua. Every time I hear it I have to fight back tears.

Thats what they used to call me all of them. I lived in quite a posh area so my full first name was always used.

My 'parents' called me that when they were screaming at me telling me I wasn't there son anymore and they were so embarrassed and ashamed of me.

That's what my 'friends' called me when they threw me to the ground kicking and pushing me because of how 'disgusting' I was.

I couldn't take hearing that name. It hurt so much. I always corrected teachers telling them it was Josh but I was new so they would always forget.

The school didn't know about me leaving and moving here on my own. Neither did any of the boys. If they knew they would get suspicious as to why I moved and then I would have to tell them. I also didn't want anyone worrying. I was fine on my own.

I was rich. Well I came from a rich family which meant I had quite a bit of money to get a flat when I ran away. It's small but it does the job. I work to allow me to live comfortably.

I use my work money to allow me to buy food. I mainly worked at weekends. Sometimes I covered the odd week night shift but rarely.

I had been day dreaming all day. Not really paying attention in class. This however only made teachers say my name. Well say 'Joshua' more and every time they did I would get lost deeper in my thoughts.

The guys must have noticed I was off a bit. They all questioned me at lunch.

"Josh what's up? You've been spaced out all day." Vik asked
"Yeah, you seem really down" Ethan added.
"Don't know just tired I guess" I replied trying to make them not worry.
"Okay as long as thats it" JJ said smiling at me
I gave him a reassuring smile back. They accepted my answer. Well all of them except Simon who kept giving me worrying glances.

He really is so sweet and cute. Wait. No, no, no. I can't think he's cute. I can't like him. Fuck. What am I going to do. It's not like he would like me back anyway. I'm just the new kid his friend befriended, he's the most popular guy in school.