My Fiance is a Ghost

Chapter 9

           I busted into my sister's apartment, "Miranda!?" I yelled. She wailed back to me from her bathroom, "I will be there in a minute."  I looked at Colin and he shrugged his shoulders. After a few minutes the bathroom door creaked open and my sister's hand stuck out motioning me. She was propped up in the corner and her makeup was smearing as she wiped away some of her tears. I hugged her allowing her hand to rest on my shoulder, "What happened?"  

       "I got fired.." she said quietly. I pulled away shocked, she had been working at Urban Outfitters as an assistant manager for the last two years and she loved it there. "Oh wow Mir, I am so sorry, but why?" I was bewildered. She managed through breaths, "I never told anyone at work I am gay...but last week I told my coworker Kelly because I mean we hang out outside of work occasionally and I felt I could trust her. I don't like hiding who I am. She seemed ok with it but then I got pulled into the office this morning by Carl and he asked me if it was true I was gay. I could've lied but why should I? So I told him the truth and he basically bluntly told me, that I didn't adhere with the company's beliefs and I was being let go" she looked at me and let out a little chuckle when she saw my red face. I was furious. "That is bullshit! After two years of being there and countless shifts you have picked up, the nights you stayed late, and the customer's they couldn't handle so they made you do it ...this is their thanks?? And all because of who you choose to love!? Being gay obviously doesn't make you any less of the wonderful and strong woman you are! If they can't get their heads out of their ass, they don't deserve you. You are too good for them" I spewed until I had to catch my breath. My sister let out a choked sob and hugged me tightly, "I would go crazy if I didn't have you. Out of everyone who knows, you were my biggest supporter."

     We talked into the early hours on the next morning. I told her I would see if I could talk to my supervisors at Applebee's about hiring her for a possible hostess or even bartender because years ago she went to school bartending. We also discussed either her moving into my apartment or me into hers. I vote hers though because she has one of those bathtubs with power jets. We talked about how she wanted to get back into the dating game and wanted me to go on double dates with her and I smiled and agreed it would be fun. Luckily, Colin had left awhile ago to give us privacy. When I left at 2 am that morning, I was in a good mood. I looked forward to spending more time with my sister.

      Boy, did we spend time. Without her job to keep her busy, Miranda was bored. I was trying to keep up with my school work, my job, and Miranda. My free time was limited and I knew it bugged Colin because I had to pretend he was non existant otherwise. So finally after school today I will have a few hours before Miranda comes over because wants to go out karaoking. When I got home I threw myself on the couch and stretched. I let out a quiet moan but stopped when Colin's voice said beside me, "Careful you are turning me on". I grinned at him, "I live for danger" I teased. He crawled on the couch with me, his body rocking over mine. His gorgeous sky eyes scanning my face. I reach up and touched his face, "What are you thinking?" I asked. He bit his lip. "What?" I preyed.  He shook his head, "You are just so beautiful" he whispered before kissing my lips softly. My heart skipped and I leaned into the kiss. I pushed the hem of his shirt up, running my hand over his stomach. I was nervous. We hadn't tried having sex yet. When we kissed, I could feel it. Like maybe not like a would in real life but his lips were very much physical to me, as well as his touch. "I want you Colin....please!" I said breathing deeply. I could see the worry in his eyes. I grabbed the back of his shirt and started to tug it over his head. "Wait!" he said with panic. He got off of me and stood up. He ran his palm over his face. He wasn't making eye contact with me. He turned around and walked out of the living room. I laid there feeling very small. 

      Colin never came back in and I spent an hour atleast just laying there trying not to cry. I was trying not to be selfish. I could only imagine what he was feeling or going through. At the same time I felt angry though. I was trying to make this as normal as possible. Finally I got up to go change my outfit and get ready for when Miranda would arrive. I slipped into a blue summer's dress. It was only the beginning of April but the weather was warmer than usual. I found a pair of simple white sandals and put on the heart necklace Colin had given me for my 19th birthday. I fingered it for a second, the feelings washing over me again. "Stop it!" I scolded myself.  I brushed my long brown hair wondering what I should do with it. I realized that for the longest time I had just been casual about everything. I never put make up on or styled my hair. My usual wardrobe consisted of jeans/slack and tanks/t-shirts. I couldn't remember the last time I put effort into my appearance and I had an idea it wasn't since Colin came back.