Dark Hair with the Thick Thighs|| Blackbear (M.M.)

Love me. Ignore me.|44

I rolled over, looking at the dude sleeping next to me. I got up and pulled on my bra and underwear before slipping on my clothes. I carefully grabbed my purse and shoes, sneaking out of his room. I had an Uber ordered before I even reached the elevator. I sighed as the doors closed and slipped on my shoes. That was probably the lousiest one night stand I've ever had. I understand if you don't like rough sex, but this guy just kept apologizing like he was a teenager touching a girl for the first time. It's a huge turn off and he finished in probably record low timing. I mean seriously. How can someone who was so hot be so utterly disappointing in bed.

I got home and fell out. I have been out every night this past week. I have done more drugs this weekend than I have in my life. I am honestly a complete mess. But, I don't care. I don't care what other people say or anything at this point.

I'm always being put last, lied to and told how to live my life. Fuck Lila's rules. Fuck Mats bipolar feelings. Fuck everything. Everyone around me right now is in relationships. Jason. Addy. Tj. Even Lila. And while I'm all for them being happy they're constantly blowing me off because of it. And fucking Mat. Began his tour calling me all the time, telling me how much he missed me and how he wish I came with him. How none of the girls hanging around compares to me. And not even a week into it completely stopped answering my texts and on social media with a jillion other girls. He's just always playing games.

And now my face is on internet articles and in magazines due to me modeling for Tommy Hilfiger and being named "most up and coming plus size model of the year". Which was all great but since then there's been tons of people writing things about bear and I.

"Bree Hays, named most up and coming plus size model of the year, has recently given many fans something to talk about. Social media star and runway model has been pictured out and on social media with rapper Blackbear. And they're looking awfully cozy in those photos. Neither has confirmed nor denied their relationship but Blackbear has, on multiple occasions, been calling Bree "his girl" "Angel" and "baby". Many fans have speculated about more of Blackbears Instagram posts including Hays. Pictures with the face hidden but she's the only girl that he has been posting. Their PDA says something other than other pictures Blackbear has been featured in recently. Hays and Blackbear have been photographed over 50 tines in the past week holding hands, kissing and out together. You can even spot Blackbear driving Hays' white corvette around town with her riding passenger. And although all of this evidence points to an utterly adorable couple, don't get your hopes up. Blackbear has been featured in many other photos and videos on various social media influencer profiles. And trust us, most of them completely crush our dynamic duo. The are definitely a pair to watch out for though. We will be."

There's so many photos, videos, new ig profiles, and articles floating around about us being together and our "relationship". And it's so frustrating to have your achievement be downgraded because of who you may or may not be dating at the moment. I don't care if people talk about my love life, I accepted long ago that if this is gonna be the line of work I'm in then I can't really keep everything private.

I was dressed in a simple black bralette, a black denim skirt, black thigh highs and a faux fur coat. I was determined to have fun tonight and not let any bull shit get in my way. So I ordered my Uber and sat back while he drove through the Hollywood hills to the party.

"Are you fucking with me?" Kells laughed at little, but seeing my blank face he stopped. "You've gotta be fucking kidding me." I shook my head. "Why wouldn't you tell me something like that. I mean fuck, why wouldn't you tell anyone that?" He said angrily, not at me, but at the situation. "I don't know, I just wanted to be done with him for good." He sighed, grabbing my face in his hands. "That little Shit should have never laid a hand on you. You didn't deserve that or any of the other shit he put you through. You deserve so much more, B. You're too fucking good to be hanging around with losers like him." He said shaking his head. His hands loosened a little, but still stayed on my face as he starred at me. He looked like he wanted to say something but before he could I leaned forward and kissed him. I caught him off guard but within seconds I was moved onto his lap and straddling him. I'd never thought about Cole in a romantic way,  I mean sure, he's hot as Fuck and is so amazing and kind when he wants to be. But we've always just had a platonic relationship. A little harmless flirting here and there but this was the first time we'd ever kissed. And it was hot. My skirt was pushed up, my jacket falling off due to his roaming hands. And I would already feel his bones through his jeans. So here I was, grinding my hips against his at a party with hundreds of people and not having a fucking care in the world.