Dark Hair with the Thick Thighs|| Blackbear (M.M.)

y u gotta make things so complicated |46

Jason
Hey, do you wanna go to karaoke with all of us tonight?

My first reaction was to say no. But then I thought about it and I've hardly left the house not to get drunk and have sex. So, I texted him back agreeing to meet them tonight.

"Hey...uh I'll be home in a few days. I miss you, angel. Hope to see you when I'm back. Okay, call me if you get a chance." I listened to the voicemail, not even sure if I was gonna respond in any way. I'm not mad at him or anything, just frustrated with the situation. I sighed and texted him.

To Bear 🐻
I'll pick you up from the airport Thursday.

I put my phone down and got into the shower. It was a little past noon and Jason wants to meet around 6. I had more than enough time to get ready but I tend to procrastinate, especially lately.

"You look good." Izzy grinned, hugging me. "You too."  I Smiled. "And you came just in time." She squealed, grabbing my hand and pulling me inside. Jason and Charlie were singing together and it was literally so cute. There were some people I didn't know. But we all immediately started getting along and taking shots together.

"How are things going with that guy you met in tinder?" I asked Izzy. "God, He was the worst. After the second date every time we went out he'd pretend he forgot his wallet and I'd have to pay. One time he had a 10 minute conversation on the phone with his best friend while we're together." "Thats not that bad." I shrugged. "It was a She and we were in the middle of sex." She rolled her eyes. I laughed. "I grabbed my shit and left. Guys in LA suck." "They really kinda do." I agreed. "But anyways, how are things with Bear?" "I don't even know to be honest." I laughed. "What does that mean?" I shrugged. "I don't know, when we're together everything's fine and whatnot then we spend a few days apart and we don't speak or anything. It's just...weird." "Well, you're one of the first girls who's stuck around or who bear kept around longer than a week in the years I've known him. Y'all are so worried about it just being casual and fun that neither one of you will admit you have feelings and it's more than just sleeping together. So trying to make it not complicated is making it more complicated." She laughed. "You're making too much sense right now, it's making my head hurt." She spun around in her chair. "Izzy's my name, relationship advice is the game." She winked at me and I burst out laughing.

We all took an Uber home because we were too drunk to drive. As soon as I got home and managed to get changed and take off my makeup I was out like a light.

"I'm so sorry I'm late." I said running into the shoot where Lila and the director were. "You're fine, you're only a few minutes late." Lila laughed. I sat down in the hair and makeup chair and waited for Niki to come over to me. Im a mess this morning. Im highly hungover and I'm on my third iced coffee already. I didn't even think that I drank that much last night.

"You're not in a good mood today." Shea said, another model who is worked with a few times. We were standing off to the side, waiting for our turn to shoot. I shrugged. "I had the worst hangover this morning." She laughed. "I've been there my friend."

"Just throw it out there, what's your number?" Niki laughed. A few of us went out for lunch after the shoot and we were talking about our body counts. "Come on guys, it's not that big of a deal." I laughed. "So it's either really high or really low." Gabi said. "Well, you'll probably never know." I smirked, sipping my drink. "I think it's up in the 40's now." Lila blurted out. Everyone's eyes went wide. "Oh my god, you're kidding." "Lila, this is why no one tells you things." "How many since you've been here?" "Only like 4." I gave in. "Who's the 4th?" "Lila." I groaned. "Fine." She laughed.

"What're you doing today?" Lila asked, sitting down at the kitchen counter while I made coffee. "I'm have to pick up Mat from the airport." I said sitting down a mug in front of her. "When's that?" I looked at the clock, it's 9. "His flight is supposed to be in at 11:15 so...I'll have to leave soon." I sighed. She made a face. "What?" I asked. "Nothing." I rolled my eyes and went to change.

I was, for some reason, nervous as I pulled up to the pick up area at lax. Maybe it was just my anxiety about what Addy said. I don't know, but as I got closer to his gate I felt a pit in my stomach. And then I saw him. I pulled up next to where he was standing and popped the trunk. Despite our not speaking, he had a grin in his face as he got in the passenger seat. "To be honest, I didn't know if you were gonna come." He said. I was left speechless, I didn't know what to say to him right now. It just felt tense. "I said I would." It came off a bit more snippy than I was hoping. I felt his hand on my thigh. "Will you relax, Angel?" He purred smoothly. "I'm not not relaxed. I just..." "You just what?" "I don't know. I don't know what to say." I lightly laughed. "Nothing's changed baby doll." I looked over at him as we stopped at the light. He leaned over and placed a light kiss on my lips. My shoulders relaxed and I grinned. He laughed. "There you go." He said, squeezing my thigh. I rolled my eyes playfully.