I pulled up in the drive way and looked over at him. "You gonna stay?" He asked. I shrugged. "I want you to stay." He smiled, grabbing my hand. I nodded and took my key out and grabbed my bag.
"How was the tour?" I asked. "It was fun. Draining but fun." He sighed with a smile. "That's nice." I smiled lightly, running my fingers through his hair. "What've you been up to?" I laughed. "I don't know if that's your way of asking about what I'm sure you saw online while you were gone or not." He looked up at me briefly before laying his head back in my lap. "That's not what I meant but I guess I wanna know that too." I sighed. "We did sleep together. I don't even know how it happened honestly, it just kinda did." He hummed, not saying anything. After a minute he looked up at me. "Angel, I'm not mad or anything..." he paused and mumbled, "jealous maybe, but not mad," "You don't have a right to be mad." I said softly. "I know that. I just don't know how to process my feelings for you." Our eyes met and he gave me a soft smile. I continued running my fingers through his hair. "I want you, more than I've wanted anyone in a long time and I don't know how to deal with you doing the same things to me that I usually do to other girls. That sounds so shitty but..." I cut him off by leaning down and kissing him. "Stop rambling. Just shut up." I laughed. He pulled my head back down, kissing me again. I grinned against his lips.
"Baby girl!" Mat yelled from downstairs. I walked out of the bathroom, still dripping water. "What?" I asked, looking over the railing into the foyer. He grinned up at me. "How long are you gonna be?" "Maybe 10 minutes." He jogged up the stairs. "I've got a meeting and interview in LA in a little over an hour so I wanna leave soon." I followed him into the room, taking my hair out of the towel. "Okay" He stripped off his shirt and walked into the closet. I went back into the bathroom and hung up both towels. After putting on my bra and underwear I applied some quick makeup. "See, this is the sights I missed." Mat said, leaning against the counter next to me. I laughed, pulling on my shorts. "Shut up." "Okay come on." He rushed, throwing my shirt at me. I rolled my eyes, putting it on and walking past him. He chuckled and grabbed my hand, pulling me back to him. "I don't wanna be late, angel." He mumbled, kissing me. I sighed. "Fine."
"And we're back with Blackbear." The radio host said. "Thank you, Thank you." Mat said, making me laugh. "Wow dude, you have just blown up in the past year. All the features on the recent album are crazy." "Yeah man, I mean, they're all guys I've been working with for years, ya know. I wanted a different sound for the album and I think incorporating all those different people like Ne-Yo, Tinashe, and T-Pain. They all have a very different sound and style and I think it gives the album a really dope sound." "Definitely. The album was on repeat here for months after it dropped." "Thank you, I appreciate that." "So tell us, what are your plans right now?" "I just got back from tour, man. It's crazy how big the venues are getting. But I have a few random shows here and there the ext couple of months. I'm mostly working on new music, merch designs, and really just relaxing." "You definitely deserve some time off." The interviewer laughed. "Okay So, we've been hearing a lot of rumors going around. And you don't have to comment if you don't want to but, we gotta know, are you or are you not currently single." Mat laughed and glanced at me. He hesitated, not knowing what to say. We had that small talk last night but we haven't specified what we really are. "Im just spreading love. Sometimes you just gotta vibe with someone for a while before defining everything."
"Are you hungry?" Mat asked, squeezing my thigh. I shrugged. "We could go to eat?" He questioned again. I nodded. "Yeah." "Yeah? That's it?" I sighed. "The first thing we had in common was that we say what's in our mind." He laughed. "Yes, and?" "The other day I was talking to Izzy and she seems to think she's now my therapist." He laughed. "As she does." He agreed. "She said we were making things more complicated between us by not wanting it to be complicated." "Jeez, she sounds like Phoebe now." "I mean, are we?" I asked, unsure of if I actually wanted to have this conversation or not. He sighed, squeezing my thigh again. "You're aware that I have feelings for you." "I'm not sure what they are yet" He mumbled. "But none the less, i have feelings, I've told you that much." I sat quietly for a moment. "I mean, I guess I might kinda also have feelings." I glanced at him to see the cockiest smirk ever on his face. "Fuck off." I mumbled, rolling my eyes. "Okay okay." He laughed. "So we both have...feelings. I think we can also both agree that this isn't an actual relationship." I nodded. "So maybe, we just try not to fuck other people for a little and see how that goes?" I asked, holding back a laugh. He looked over at me and burst out laughing. "Fuck, this is an awkward conversation to have." "1 million percent agreed. But seriously, we can't keep doing this back and fourth shit like this, there's gotta be some order to it." "So we're dating." He shrugged. "If we've gotta label it, we're dating. It's not that big of a deal." I rolled my eyes. "Look, I know this isn't what either of us expected and I know now I have paparazzi everywhere and a million people looking at everything I do which unintentionally drags you into all of this that you didn't ask for." He laughed. "You're not the first girl I've dated like that, angel. It's not that big of a deal." I rolled my eyes. "Is anything ever a big deal?" I mumbled and he chuckled.
We decided on Italian food while we were in LA at one of his favorite spots. "It's just not fair." I said, sitting back in the booth. "You sound like a child." "You're acting like a child. You're a grown man who is complaining about only wanting to sleep in your bed." I rolled my eyes. "You know, I pay rent for a reason, to live there. Not to spend every night at your place." I pointed my fork at him. "No ones forcing you to." He smirked. I shrugged. "Fine. I'll be staying in my own apartment tonight and the rest of the week. And if you wanna have sex or spend the night you'll have to come to my place." I continued to eat, not looking at him. I could feel his glare on me and I smirked to myself.
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Ugh I'm sorry for the long over due upload, my surgery was a bit more than I expected but all is well now. Also v sad news, I probably won't be going to the concert on November 1st due to that I have no one to go with and my mother won't let me make the 16 hour round trip drive by myself, which is understandable. But highkey upset about that. Anyways, let me know what you guys think of this chapter, I was on pain meds when I wrote part of it 😂
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