Dearest

Chapter 2

Eren's PoV

"Eren are you crazy?!"Armin exclaimed almost spitting his tea on my face. He quickly took a napkin and composed himself.

"What's so crazy about that?" I asked. Taking a sip on my tea, I watched the birds landed on the bird bath. The two of them splashed at each other. It was a great day to have a cup of tea with the one you love in the gardens.

Looking back at Armin, I caught him staring at me like I was joking. He must had saw the seriousness in my eyes because after a few seconds, he surrendered. "You seriously want me and this 'Levi' to meet?"

"Yeah, and what's wrong with that?"

"What's wrong?! Eren, he is your fiance!" Armin slammed his fist on the table. The tea from the cups jumped at the impact.

"He is but we're in the same boat, he hates his parents for setting us up and he loves someone else too."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, I'm sure. He is very nice and I think he is smaller than you!"

"Let's change the subject, this topic is making me uncomfortable."

Armin held his head up like a diva. Sometimes I hated how he acted like a snob with his puffy dress. I didn't like this Armin, I liked the Armin that I met in college. The one who didn't act like a sophisticated Omega and the one who rather wore a plain shirt and nerdy glasses. I couldn't blame Armin though, I knew all of this was nothing but a show. He said to me that he hated acting like a perfect Omega but he had too or his parents like flip.

I tried to think another topic to talk about. During the process of thinking, my eyes drew at the long straws blond.

"When are you going to cut your hair?"

"You don't like it?"

"I...."

It's not that Armin was not attractive with long hair but too me I liked his short hair better. Now that I thought about it, Levi also had long raven hair. It was not odd for a male Omega to have long hair, however, it was so hard to tell that a certain Omega was actually a male which was why I prefered them with short hair.

"If you don't like it then bare with me, my mom like it a lot... I can't do anything with it now I'm home."

I watch Armin as he tried to flip his back like it was a burden.

"I understand.... So, you got a new Butler?"

"Yeah, his name is Erwin. I think he's not half bad."

"He looks like the usual calm and collected Butler," I said in boredom as I watched Erwin from the window.

"... He's not half bad..."

It's my turn to stare at Armin, somehow his words meant more than normal.

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Levi's PoV

"So, how did it go, Master Levi?"

I almost groaned at Petra's antics. She's the new maid in the house, the only maid who reached my cleaning standards enough to clean my room. Usually, I clean my room by myself until I had her. However, she practically didn't grasp the idea that I didn't talk to anyone in the house and she kept talking to me.

"I heard that he was a real hotie."

I rolled my eyes at her, watching her in my mirror as she fixed my bed. I wanted to shout at her to shut up or simply drop the topic because my heart couldn't take it and I coudn't afford to cry in front of somebody.

I never expected.... What am I even thinking? Surely, Eren found someone much better while in college. I doubt that he even remembered our first meeting. Maybe all this time, it was just me... What's more painful was he wanted my help to stop the marriage, our marriage. I thought when this day come, I'll finally be happy.... why did everything end up this way? Not to mention he wanted me to meet the Omega who stole his heart.... Why I am being tortured like this?

I leaned back at my chair, trying to blink away the forming tears. Distracting myself, I eyed all the expensive makeups in front of me. What's the use of these when the one I love already loved someone? Throwing them would be the only solution.

Nodding to myself, I picked each item, opening it up and throwing all its contents in the bin near my table.

That took Petra's attention. "Did something happened?"

I watched her face fell in the mirror. Still, I'm glad she didn't stop me but she cringed when I broke each lipstick before throwing them. They were useless to me now.

Petra waited until I threw the last item before taking out the trash. She looked down at all the ruined items before looking at me.

"Something did happened."

I ignored her and reached for the scissor. I didn't notice how long my hair got, I really looked like a female which was revolting. Why I am so stupid to think that Eren might like it? I took half of my raven hair and cut it without care.

"Master!"

My breath hitched when Petra grabbed my wrist, stopping me from cutting any further. I glared at her. Before I could shove her away, she spoke once again.

"Let me help you."

That completely took me off guard but I try to not show it. I end up giving the scissor to her. I could almost feel her positive vibes, she's probably happy that I finally gave in after months of ignoring her.

"You want it short?" She asked, draping a blanket over my shoulders to keep the hair away.

I didn't do anything to answer her question but she knew my answer when she looked into my eyes in the mirror.

"Short it is."

She cut my hair in silence and I greatly thank her for it but the silence didn't last.

"Lord Eren will visit again on Sunday and I think he'll love your new hair."

I doubt it. People didn't want to be judge as gay just because they were married to a male Omega. That was why male Omegas had long hair, wore female clothes and acted like one.

Even now, I hated my long hair, this uncomfortable puffy dress, and acting like a damn girl. But I set aside my hate and discomfort for Eren... All my efforts went to waste...

Still, I couldn't bring myself hate the only person that I love. I should just accept that fact that he found someone better and I should be happy... But why did it hurt so much? My heart aches so painfully. I'm falling apart.

"And done!"

I heard Petra cheered and I looked myself in the mirror.

Not. Short. Enough.

Taking matters to myself, I pulled out the razor in the small cabinet of my table and shaved the back of my head starting on my nape.

"Oh! I see! Let me help!"

I'm glad she volunteered because if I kept this up my arms would tire.

"You want an undercut? I think it will suit you!"

I couldn't seem to understand why she's even excited in the first place. But I silently thank her for helping me out.

After a long meticulous shaving and final touches, Petra finally announced that it was done.

"Oh! Master forgive me but you're so handsome!"

I stared at myself in the mirror. Petra must have parted my bangs on side without me noticing. Turning side view, I saw a clean undercut. She really over worked herself but I'm not complaining, my head fells so light and it was refreshing.

"Lord Eren will surely loved it!"

... I doubt it....

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edited 03/30/21