Dearest

Chapter 3

Levi's PoV

"Oh, my God!"

I liked her mortified expression when she saw new appearance. Not only that I got my hair cut but I wore a simple dress shirt, pared with black slacks. No makeup, no accessories. The only thing that stood out on me was my cravat.

She stared at me, jaw dropped. It took her almost minute to compose herself again. "Levi, dearest. I barely recognized you."

Not caring for her opinion, I walked pass her. I literally memorized all her lectures and I didn't want to hear it all over again like a broken record.

"Lord Eren will be coming over today."

My mother's words made me stop. Today? I thought his visits would be on Sundays.

"We can still fix you up," my mother approached me, cupping my cheek. I tensed, backing away in contact.

I knew my parents would never hurt me physically nor they touched me. It was so weird that my mother tried it after many years of being cold towards me.

I stared at her like she was the odd one out before going to the sun room.

I sat on my usual spot, watching as the maids set the table. Petra knew me too well because automatically set down the tray of tea. Nodding as an acknowledgement, she went back to the kitchen to prepare the sweets. While waiting, I helped himself with a cup of black tea.

During the times when I'm almost at the edge, black tea was my only salvation. It was just a simple drink but it helped stop my own suicidal thoughts. It always helped me calm down and think for a moment and enjoyed the little things in life. I might be deprived from love and attention but I'm lucky to have a soft bed, good food and this tea.

The table was set and I've already consumed three cups of tea. My mind was running none-stop, what if Eren got disgusted of my new appearance? I had no idea what to do. Perhaps the only solution was to pretend that there was nothing different on me.

My thoughts were cut short when I heard the door opened and closed.

Eren's here.

I slowly looked up, mentally preparing myself at my Alpha's reaction.

Eren was half-way to his step. Frozen. Mouth open. Eyes wide staring back at me.

I lowered my head. Biting down my lower lip, hoping that the tears won't shed. What was I thinking?! Eren would be visiting regularly and I let my depression get into my head-

"Wow."

I perked up a little, only to find Eren staring at me. Awe struck.

"I-I mean! You look good, wow..." Eren awkwardly straighten and took his seat.

I sat down. Eyes down at my tea. Did Eren just complement me or it was me hearing things? I fiddled with my cup, not risking another glance at the Alpha in front of me.

The silence was very awkward before Eren spoke again. "Hey, I didn't mean gawk at you. I was just surprise- I mean! I didn't expect that you would cut your hair and change your clothing- I.... What I was trying to say is, you look beautiful."

I glanced up at him and saw him staring again. I straightened but averted his gaze. No matter what I do, I couldn't stop myself from blushing. Eren complemented my new look. He liked it. He thinks I'm beautiful. My heart might explode.

"Thank you..." It almost came out as a whisper.

"Not used to complements in your new look?" Once again Eren gave me one of his beaming smile.