Seeking Control: A Sanders Sides Tale

Chapter Sixteen

Logan's P.O.V

"Have you seen Virgil? I need to speak with him." I ask Patton as I enter the kitchen. He is grabbing something to drink from the fridge. 

"No, isn't he in his room? Have you tried looking for him?" he asks. I shake my head in response and lean against the counter. 

"I looked in his room but he is not there," I tell him. He walks over to me and asks what I need him for. "I just wanted to ask him about something, no worries. I am sure he is alright but what about you?" I ask pulling him towards me.

"Me? I'm okay. I mean I'm worried about Virge but besides that I'm okay," he says. I smile softly and kiss his nose causing him to laugh. 

"I love you Lo," he says wrapping his arms around my waist. 

"I love you too. Do you want to go watch something with me?" I ask. 

He nods in agreement. We walk over to the commons and I lead him to the couch. I turn on the television to a random channel and we sit down to cuddle.

Virgil's P.O.V

It's around noon the next day and I'm practicing my magic in the imagination. In the middle of a spell my pocket vibrates.

Princey👑: We need to talk. Can you meet me in the imagination in half an hour?

Anx🌩: do i have to

Princey👑: Please?

Anx🌩: im here now

I don't get any response which means he's probably on his way. I could leave but it wouldn't do any good, eventually I will have to talk to him. Might as well get it over with. 

As the minutes go by I feel my own anxiety build up. Is he mad at me? Yes. Is he going to yell at me? Yes. Does he hate me now? Yes. These thoughts are racing through my mind and I feel an anxiety attack coming on.

"Anx, are you alright?" Princey's voice snaps me out of it and only now do I realize he's holding my shoulders. "Anx, why are you crying?" he asks. 

I'm what? Wiping away my tears I try to figure out why I started crying. Is it that the weight of everything is just now hitting me? Maybe. 

"Anx, I just wanted to make sure you were okay and give you this back," he says softly handing me the pendant. 

"I know, I'm sorry. There is just a lot of stuff on my mind and thanks," I tell him. I put it back on. He changes the scenery to the same one he brought me to before and takes me under the tree.

[Well, I love you and I need you so please if you love me back... snap out of it. You don't need to be afraid we're right here. I'm right here!] 

"Did you mean what you said before?" I ask quietly leaning against the tree. 

"Are you talking about when I told you I loved you?" he asks smiling. I only nod in response. "Of course, did you mean it when you said it?" I look at him and say, "I meant it too." He walks over to me and grabs my hand before pulling me into a kiss. I pull away for a moment

We make out for a few minutes but get interrupted by Logan's voice.

L: Roman? Virgil? We need you two in the commons.

R: We will be right there.

"Well that kind of ruined the moment." he says laughing and I can't help but laugh with him. 

"So what do you say to making us official?" 

He actually wants to- [You really are evil and I can't be around someone who's evil... I wanted to make sure you knew nothing between us was real.] I pull away as the memory flashes through my mind. 

"Anx? If you don't-" I shake my head and manage to get him to stop talking.

Roman's P.O.V

"I do want that, more than anything but.." he stops and looks away. 

"But what Anx?" I ask concerned by the fear written on his face. 

"I- I'm scared..." he answers softly. "Do you really want someone like me? Someone evil?" he asks. 

Evil? Despite the things I've said and done in the past I never actually saw him as evil. Edgy, yes. Emo, yes. But never evil. 

"Anx, listen to me. You are everything I want and more. You're not evil," I assure him. "I know in the past I have been a huge jerk but I'll be honest with you. I've liked you in a romantic way for six years but I let my stupid ego get in the way."

"What do you mean?" he asks looking directly at me. 

"It's stupid. I knew I liked you but I wouldn't admit it to myself because that would've made it real. I was too caught up in myself to realize that I was hurting you," I say looking at him. Without saying anything he hugs me. "So, is that a yes? You'll be my boyfriend?" 

He pulls away and laughs softly before saying, "Yes, I would love to be your boyfriend."