Seeking Control: A Sanders Sides Tale

Chapter Eight

Logan's P.O.V

In my library still looking for my book, I notice Patton sneaking in. 

"What are you doing?" I ask scaring him and causing him to scream, as well as dropping the item in his hand. He quickly picks it up putting it behind his back. 

"Umm.. I was just stopping by to check in. I missed you and wanted to visit," he says leaning in to kiss me. 

After he kisses me I ask, "I have missed you as well but may I ask what you are hiding behind your back?" Looking down he shows me and it's my book. "You have had it this whole time? Why did you take it?" I ask. 

He hands it to me saying, "I went to get you and found it so I brought it in here. But I wanted to read it so I would be able to talk to you about it. I didn't think you would want me to borrow it." I was not expecting that answer. 

"Pat, you could have just asked and I would have said yes. I find it amazing that you would even want to do that," I tell him.

"So, you're not mad?" he asks. I shake my head and he tackles me in a hug almost knocking us both over. I cannot help but laugh. 

"So what are your plans for the rest of the day Lo?" he asks sitting on a chair. 

Leaning against a table I answer, "Well, I was going to work on next weeks schedule for Thomas but I wanted to speak with Virgil first. Speaking of which I should go now and I will come find you later. Love you." I stop in my tracks because Patton and I have only been dating for about 2 ½ months. 

"You do?" he asks. 

I turn around, "Uhh.. Well yeah... I always have. Is that not okay?"

Hugging me he says, "No it's fine I just didn't expect you to say it first. I love you too." 

I kiss his forehead and tell him I will see him later. I make my way to Virgil's room and knock but get no response. I open the door, walk in but find no sign of him. Where is he? 

As I turn to leave I find a note on his bed with the words {I'm sorry} written on front and a small pendant. I pick up the letter and start reading it.

{I doubt anyone will care but I'm sorry. You all deserve better and not someone always bringing you down. Logan and Patton thanks for everything. Roman, I'm sorry for what I did and emotion or not there's no excuse. Thomas, I hope things get easier for you without me around. I never really said it but I hope you all know I love you guys. -Virgil}

I drop the note and turn to see the light in the bathroom on. I run to open the door and am horrified at what I see. There he is, sitting in the bathtub with blood dripping from his arms. No, why would he do this? I may not always act like it but I know we need him and I do care for him. He is the closest thing to a friend I have. 

"Patton, Roman get to Virgil's room now!" I exclaim, both aloud and using my telepathy. I rush to the tub and try to stop the bleeding. They burst in the bathroom. "Roman, help me get him out and Patton the first aid please. Hurry!" I tell them. 

"What..." he asks, still in shock. Patton freezes in place so I say it again. 

"Patton, I need the first aid to help him. Please, hurry!" I say. He runs to the kitchen.

Roman picks him up and carries him to his bed laying him down. He puts two fingers to his neck.

"He's still breathing but only barely. Why would he do this?! I had just seen him a couple hours ago," Roman says.