Seeking Control: A Sanders Sides Tale

Chapter Thirty-three

Virgil's P.O.V (Huge Time skip - four months)

"You can't fight it forever Virgil! Eventually they will all die and it will be your fault! Get it over with!" a dark 'me' yells while his hand is around my throat. 

He throws me back and I hit a wall. When I fall to the floor and start to push myself up I notice the people standing in front of me. My friends, not just all the sides but the guild members too. 

"Why are you doing this? I thought you cared about us Anx..." Princey breathes out as I pick them all up by their throats with my Dark Magic. I watch and laugh as the light leaves their eyes.

"Hey, hey, you're okay. I'm right here," Princey says holding me as I shake. He continues to hold me until I calm down. 

"There was a dark 'me' with his hands around my throat, telling me that I could no longer fight what I would do. He threw me against a wall and when I stood up not just all of you guys but the guild members too were there," I say after he asks what happened and I start to cry again. "I picked you all up by y-your throats with my Dark Ma-. I watched as you all died, by my hand... I-I can't w-watch you all d-die... I-I can't watch y-you die Roman, " I sob choking on my own words. 

He holds me closer and kisses my forehead. I try to say something but I can't control my own movements. I watch as my hand lifts up behind Princey and I create an orb of my Death Predation spell.

No! I scream in my head and pull back from him. 

"What's wrong?" he asks trying to grab my hand but I pull further away. "Don't touch me!" I say standing up and using my shade spell to get to the Imagination. Once there I sit down and try to prevent the anxiety attack that's coming on. Breathe. In for 4 seconds. Hold for 7 seconds. Out for 8 seconds. I can do this. Focus. It takes me a minute but I finally calm down. 

"Hey kiddo, what's wrong?" Patton says from behind be. Turning around I notice him, Logan and Roman standing there. 

"Nothing... I'm fine," I say not really looking at them. 

"Virgil, if something is wro-" Logan starts to say but I cut him off. 

"I told you I'm fine! I'm going back to my room. Don't follow me. I want to be alone," I tell them. I push past them and walk back to my room. Is Dee trying to use his Possession Magic on me so he can attack the others?

It's possible but it doesn't feel like Dee's magic. I stop in front of my door. What else could it be though? I need to tell someone about this. In case it happens again. Logan. If anyone can help me figure out what's wrong it's him. I hear footsteps in the commons, so I quickly run to Logan's room. 

"We can talk to him tomorrow Patton. I am also concerned but if we try to push the issue, he might not tell us," Logan says from outside his door and I hide behind it. Patton mumbles something in return and Logan opens his door. He looks directly at me as he closes and locks his door. 

"I thought I sensed someone in here. I assume you are here to talk," he says gesturing to his bed.

I sit on his bed before telling him how I woke up in a panic and for a second I couldn't control my own magic. 

"I almost used my Death Predation spell on him Logan," I explain. He nods and seems to be thinking so I reach up to grab my pendant. It's gone! 

"No! Where did it go?" I say suddenly, earning a confused look from Logan. 

"What is it?" he asks. 

"My pendant from Roman, it's gone. He's going to think I threw it away! He'll hate me!" I start to panic but Logan grabs my shoulders.