Foreordained. || Park Jinyoung fanfic

Far of reach.

"I don't just like you, I love you." He finally says as he masters up the courage to look into my eyes again.

"I'm sor-"
"It's okay. It's not your fault." He cuts my apology and gets ready to stand.
I silently follow him to the car.

We don't even live together i have no idea why I came back to his house with him.
I want to tell him that I like him too. He made me feel things I've never been able to witness before. He has an effect on me that no one ever had or will ever have on me.
But, Wouldn't I seem pathetic? I just broke up with his best friend and now I'm dating him?
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The ride was very awkward, "Welcome." He says as he smiles and leads the way to his house.
He immediately goes off to his room and shuts the door.

I sit in the chair that's in the kitchen and stare at the door to his room.
I look at the time and notice that I've spent 3 hours just staring at a wooden door.
I'm scared. I'm scared to confess again. What if he leaves me as well? What if he stops liking me? What if it's temporary? What if I i end up falling for him harder than he does for me. Can I risk falling in love with this man and then getting hurt? What if he cheats?
"Omg no no no!" I say as I block my ears trying to avoid hearing my wild thoughts.

Suddenly I hear Jinyoung open the door. I pretend like I'm playing on my phone so that I don't get caught.
"You haven't slept yet?" I ask trying to sound cool.
He looks at me coldly, "no. I will. Now." He answered as he grabbed his cup of water and walked away casually making my heart beat faster and face turn red and suddenly feel hotter than normal.

He again shuts the door to his room making me stare at it as wild thoughts again rush through the little brains I have left in me.

I suddenly feel tears well up my eyes as I question myself,

"I want you, but why can't I have you?"