Neoncon

Chapter 15

Back to Becca's point of view

My flight was finally over and I got out of the airport as soon as I could. I called my brother to come pick me up before anything because he I knew he was home since I was home. Also, my older sister was at my house. She wasn't my dads child but he raised her.

I waited t the airport for a long time then I saw a familiar face. "Hey I haven't seen you in a while" Jayden hugged me. "Hi!" "I need to go but I get home next week we can catch up then! See you" he smiled.

Finally Jack got here and I got into the passenger seat. "How's he doing" I asked. "Rebecca, he is in the hospital right now! He just had another stroke! Dads not okay" he rushed out of the airport. "What are you talking about? I thought he was doing better" I choked. "He's been slowly dying but he could pass soon, really really soon" I gasped for air. I felt dizzy and sick but I held up on our thirty minute drive.

"What room" I rushed. Jack took me up there and nobody was in the waiting room. He led me into the room and doctors and everyone were in there.

"Dad" I screamed. I grabbed his hands. instantly I cried. "Don't go dad you can hold up! C'mon!" "Baby girl, my time has come and I can't hold up any longer. I love you" he very weekly spoke. "I'm never letting go" I shouted. "Please move ma'am. we have to check his heartbeat" a nurse said. "No I'm not moving!" "I'm sorry, take your time" she backed off.

I rested my head on my fathers chest and cried. "Hunny don't get his gown wet" my mom sobbed in the corner. "He doesn't care" I felt like I was dying too. I couldn't breathe and I kept choking. My dad was one part of my life I never wanted to let go of. "We love you! Please stay" I whispered. "I don't have a choice anymore, I love you all and I just want you all to find happiness without me" were his last words.

As soon as the monitor was a straight line, doctors came rushing in and doing CPR and lots of other thing but his heart was stopped. I still held his warm hand and kissed it. "We need you to let go now" another nurse said. "I'm so sorry for letting go" I shivered. I went into the hallway and slid down the wall. I brought my knees to my chest and cried. There was really nothing else to do.

About and hour passed and I still hadn't moved. I couldn't. I was very sad but also so guilty for letting go. I knew eventually I had to but not so soon.

I look to the end of the hall and I saw a all guy, looked like was on a six hour plane ride. He had headphones aroun this neck and as he came closer I saw Matt. I ran up and jumped into his arms. "Baby" he gushed. "My dads gone" I swallowed. "I'm so sorry" he hugged my tighter.

I wanted to go back to the old days where I was young. Alone, free! Being with my family alone. Not worried about being stalked or yelled at for pictures. I wanted to go back just whole life and change everything. I never wished I moved to San Francisco. I regret my whole life. Only thing I didn't regret in all these years of my life was meeting Matthew Espinosa. Since he was here for me in my darkest times, I knew he was the one person that really loves me like I love him. Yeah I wished my life was totally different but I just was grateful because you never know what's coming next. I had to live in the moment and except what happened and that it happened for a reason.

Only thing I couldn't get pass was my dad. Never would I ever get pass that. He was one of the greatest guys alive. Even when he had money, he would still go but a homeless guy dinner. Never did my dad want anything but for everyone around him to be happy. My dad also never did anything for himself. He didn't want a funeral so we won't have one. He just wanted everyone to get together and say goodbye one last time.***

The ending to my week was a lot better then the begging. Matt stayed with me all week. We had a great time. Today was the day a few family members were going to burry him.