It was a completely silent two hour drive back to the Sanctuary. I knew my dad was proud of me, but he was waiting until we were in private to talk to me. I don't know what this means for me and my relationship with the people back at Alexandria. They were my home and I ruined it all. I won't be surprised if Daryl comes tomorrow to end things with me. If he even shows up. We arrived back to the Sanctuary and Dawson headed straight to his room, not saying a word to me or my dad. I followed my dad to my new room, my new home.
"We need to have a talk Rowan. A long one. I hope you aren't tired." My dad said, before opening the door to my new room. I followed him inside to a small sitting area. How could I sleep after what I did? I shook my head, allowing him to say what he needed to say.
"What you did tonight, leaves an unknown future for us and the people at Alexandria. I can't help but be proud of you for what you did, and Dawson will come around, but just lay low for awhile. If Daryl comes tomorrow with your things, that's okay. He can stay as long as you want him too." I sat there, staring at the ground. I couldn't say anything to him. I didn't even think about the consequences. "When I saw your mother get killed, there was nothing more I wanted than to beat the living shit out of all of those people. As much as I know you think I'm evil, there was always a light in your mom that kept me on the ground, even if it didn't seem like it. I know your mom was scared of me, I know Dawson is too, that's why I need you here. What we did to Daryl, I'm incredibly sorry for. If I knew he was your boyfriend, you know I wouldn't. He didn't kill your mom. It was the wrong thing to do. When I saw you sitting on the ground with your group, the light I thought I lost when I lost your mom came back. Made me want to be a better person. That's why I didn't want you killing anyone. I don't want you turning out like me." This time, my dad's head was down in defeat. I leaned over to him and cried into his shoulder.
"Daddy, I'm so sorry for what I did. It's just that all of the feelings I had when I saw you alive and you told me Dawson was too. Then mom wasn't, and she died at the hands of my people, I felt so much guilt and regret. We could have been a family again." I cried.
"I have my family, right here. You and Dawson are my family." He consoled me, letting me cry. "I think you need to get some rest, even if you think you won't be able to sleep." My dad went to stand up. "There's clothes in the closet that should fit you. I had some of the women donate some items for you to have until you get your other things. Feel free to roam around, no one will hurt you." My dad kissed the top of my head before standing up and walking to the door.
"I love you dad." I said sadly.
"Love you too, Ro."
