I took HIS VIRGINITY.

Chapter 30: Positive

Chapter 30: Positive

I looked at the pregnancy test.

Two lines.

Mariin akong napapikit. Shit. Bullshit. Just when everything seems to be fine. I heard Josh knock. "Are you done yet?"

"Yes. Coming out in a bit." Lumabas ako ng banyo. Naglalakad siya ng pabalik balik sa tapat ng pinto. Mukha talaga siyang aligaga na hindi mapakali.

"What? Ano na?" Natatarantang tanong ni Josh. I gave him the PT. and once he saw it, his face fell.

Umupo si Josh sa couch saka sinalo ng mga palad nya ang mukha nya. Nafafrustrate na naihilamos nya sa mukha nya ang ang mga kamay nya.

"J-josh.." He looked up at me. Namumula yung mga mata nya. Nagsisimula na ding magtubig ang mga sulok ng mga mata niya. Lagi ko nalang siyang pinapaiyak. He who did nothing but love me. Siya pa yung lagi kong nasasaktan. I know Josh's not as tough as other guys alam din nating lahat na minsan para talaga siyang babae kung magreact. Lalo na nung kinuha ko yung virginity nya. But this time, it was different. Hurt and pain were clearly evident in his features. Specially in his eyes. I went closer and cupped his face.

"I-iiwan mo na ba ko?" Nanginginig kong tanong sa kanya. Just the thought of him leaving me kills me. Pano pa kaya pag iniwan na nya talaga ko? Kakayanin ko ba?

"I.. I don't know.." Nagiwas siya sakin ng tingin. Inalis nya yung kamay ko sa pisngi nya. He's looking everywhere but me. What have I done? Yung kaisa-isang taong tinanggap at minahal ako, nag-aalangan na sakin ngayon. Gaga ka kasi Nikkie. You could have stopped Alex. You could have kicked him in the balls or something. But what? Umiyak ka lang. You let him get in to you. Ano ka ngayon?

"K-kala ko ba mahal mo ko? You said you won't ever leave me no matter what. Sabi mo you love me enough to accept me kahit ano pa ko. W-what happened to that?" My voice began to crack. Umiiyak na din ako. I took a sharp breath. I was hoping. Hoping he'd accept me again kahit ano man ang nangyayari sakin ngayon. Kung buntis ako or what. I was hoping his love was still enough to accept me. And this..

Umiling-iling lang siya. Lalo akong napaiyak. Ayaw nya na. Hindi nya na ko kayang tanggapin. Sobra naman na kasi yung hinihingi ko diba? Pati ba naman anak ng iba ipapaako ko sa kanya? Gaga mo talaga Nik. Bakit ba kasi ganito? Kung kelan okay na ulit kami saka ulit may mangyayari na ganito? Bakit ba kasi ako nabuntis? Bakit ka ba nagiwan ng souvenir? Feeling mo ba gusto ko? Gago ka Alex. Kahit kelan panira ka talaga. Ikaw nalang lagi yung sumisira ng buhay ko. Hindi ka pa nakuntento when you took my virginity then left me hanging. Bakit kailangan mo pang bumalik sa buhay ko? Just when everything seems to be fine. Kung kelan perpekto na yung buhay ko saka ka pa ulit susulpot.

I took a deep breath then wiped my tears away. "S-sige." Napaangat ng tingin si Josh. There was shock and confusion written on his face. "K-kung ayaw mo at kung di mo talaga kaya. O-okay lang. I was asking for too much, wasn't I? H-hindi ko naman pwedeng ipa-ako sayo ang hindi sayo. Sobra na yun. K-kaya sige." Huminga ulit ako ng malalim. "Let's let each other go." I said almost close to a whisper. I let out a little smile. Trying to assure him that I'm okay. I'll be okay.

"N-no." He took a deep breath then looked directly in my eyes. "No. I-i'm going to father your child. If that's what it takes just for me to be with you." His eyes were sincere. And I can't help but cry even more. He loves me this much. That he would father Alex's child just for me to be with him. I was never wrong when I decided to give ourselves a chance. It's worth the risk. It's worth fighting for.

"I couldn't imagine you being with another guy. I want you to only be mine. You're the only one I want to grow old with. And you're the only one I imagine sitting on the porch with while watching our grandchildren play." He cupped my face and gently peck my nose. "I love you so much. So much that I couldn't imagine living a life without you. So much that I'm willing to do whatever it takes just to be with you." I was just crying. I couldn't find words to thank this guy. How could I ever thank him? How could I ever thank God for giving him to me?

"S-shh.. My queen shouldn't be crying." He kissed my tears away. And whispered "I love you, okay?" I nodded a bit. "Don't you love me too?" I didn't answer him. Instead, I just kissed him. He kissed me back. And after sometime, we pulled away.

He leaned his forehead on mine. We stayed like that. Just staring at each others' eyes. "Let's get married." Nanlaki yung mga mata ko when I realized what he just said.

"A-are you sure?" I asked nervously. Ayokong pagsisihan nya ang pagpapakasal sakin. I want him to be sure that he wanted to be with me for the rest of his life.

"Are you doubting my feelings for you then?" Umiling ako.

"No."

"Then let's get married. So that I can have you for myself. Only for myself." I can't help but smile with his remark. Ahh. So lucky to have this guy.

"You don't have a ring." I jokingly said.

"Who said I don't?" Kumunot yung noo ko. May kinuha siya sa bulsa nya. Wait. I think that velvet box is familiar. He opened it at napanganga ko sa nakita ko.

"That's--"

"Yes. These are the one you bought. Now, what's your answer?"

Inirapan ko siya. "Isn't obvious? Of course it's yes!"

He grinned from ear to ear and gently placed the ring on my finger.

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