Breakin Me Lovin Me

15

It's been about a week or so since Marcel and I made up. I've only seen him about 2 times this week, today is Friday and I'm getting ready for college we had about 2 weeks for break. Now it's back to college. Great.

Right now I'm in the shower. I've been in here for about 15 minutes now. I was sweating, screaming, and shuffling all night. I had a horrible dream.

-Start of the dream-

The dream was about me having my baby girl and she was about 5 years old I assume and we were outside playing in the yard and a black van pulled up and somebody grabbed me from behind and I knew who the person was because I can remember those hands from anywhere.

Lamonte whispered in my ear.

"Thought you were going to take my baby girl away from me? Well, now I'm taking her away from you!" He said.

A man jumped out of the black car and slit my baby girl's throat. He looked at me and smiled. All I could hear was my daughter's gurgling screams.

-End of the dream-

God, I woke up in the middle of the night multiple times crying quietly, so I wouldn't wake anyone up.

I only got like 3 hours of sleep last night. I look in the mirror and see dark circles under my eyes and my eyes are puffy and red, you can, unfortunately, tell I've been crying.

I head into my room and put on some grey sweat pants, a black hoodie, and my slides. Not in the fashion mood today as you can tell. I grab my bookbag and I make sure I have my books, pencils, notes, and computer. Ya know the usual back to school supplies.

I go downstairs and see that only Hakeem was awake.

"What are you doing awake?" I ask.

"Well, I made you breakfast. It is your first day back right or are you on your way to the carnival?"

"Haha very funny, but I'm not really hungry."

"Oh come on. You have a baby girl inside of you, she must be hungry."

I'm guessing he heard me crying. I'm actually glad he didn't barge in and tell me it's alright.

"Yeah, your right."

I sit down and he puts a little bit of food on my plate and watches me eat.

"Are you done staring?"

"Nope, eat all of it."

"I'm going to be late." I say changing the subject.

"Well, you better eat up." He says smirking.

I don't have any energy to argue, so I just continue eating.

"Alright, let's go kiddo."

"You're only a few years older than me."

"That's the point." He says laughing.

I just roll my eyes. We head to my school with me directing him on where to go. We finally pull up and I get out of his car.

"Hey!" Hakeem shouts.

I turn around slowly.

"Have a good day and call me if you need anything."

"Noted." I nod. He waits until I walk into the college before he drives off.

Ya know it's stupid that we start college on a damn Friday. Like yall could've waited 2 more fucking days.

My schedule goes like this.