A sanctuary of thoughts

Who says 'kinda' isn't a strong word

Kinda want to be the only thing you think about all the time,
Kinda don't want to let you know that you are the only thing I think about,
Kinda fall for you all over again every time you smile,
Kinda wanna tell you I love that thing you do when you laugh,
Kinda don't wanna make you feel like I've gone way too far,
Kinda wanna make you believe in love like never before,
Kinda scared of reality, like you,
Kinda making our lives a love story, one heartbeat at a time,
Kinda trying to not make myself a mess,
Kinda trying to hold all the avalanches together,
Kinda trying to stop dreaming about me and you together,
Kinda know that your spell on me is just too strong,
Kinda looking at you every time you're not looking towards me,
Kinda trying to not falling in love but still having my hands tied to my back,
Kinda love to hate you,
Kinda hating myself that I love you.