strawberries (yoonmin) #WATTYS2019

XXIV

Tuesday, May 1st

It's seven am, a time that is usually pretty much illegal to Min Yoongi but today his mood couldn't be any better. He spent the entire three day weekend with Jimin, literally from 12 pm to 10 pm every single day.

He had a great nights sleep too and he's ready to face the day. Yoongi walked into first period, setting his coffee and backpack down at his seat. Namjoon was already in class, sitting right next to him, trying to finish the homework from the week before.

"Good morning," Yoongi said happily and sat down.

"You're in a good mood?" Namjoon asked and looked over at the older.

"Yeah? It's a nice day," Yoongi shrugged with a smile.

"A nice day? The Min Yoongi I know would never call Monday a 'nice day'."

"Oh shut up, it's not even technically Monday. And I just had a good weekend is all," Yoongi shrugged again as he took his binder out of his backpack.

"What'd you do?" Namjoon asked even though he had a sickening feeling of what the answer was.

"On Friday I took Jimin to the coffee cafe and we hung out there for way too long. Saturday me and Jimin went to the park to read and do some homework and then we went back to my house and played video games. Sunday we went to the used car lot across town and I finally got my own car. And then on Monday I took him around town and we took some pictures on my polaroid," Yoongi said and jangled his keys in front of Namjoon's face.

"W-wow. I'm happy for you," Namjoon smiled nervously and looked back down at the homework.

He knows that the two are getting too close. They've already gotten too close and he can tell without Yoongi even saying it. His cheeks blush when he talks about him, his hands fidget nervously at the mention of Jimin's name. It was all too obvious.

"Thanks. Jiminnie lives far out and it kinda takes up a bit of gas so I have to get a job."

And now he's got nicknames for him and Namjoon knows he has to say it. He can't let his best friend grow any deeper feelings for this boy.

"Yoongi-"

"I know what you're thinking, don't be picky I know. I'm thinking like maybe work at that stupid pizza place on the corner. Hoseok said they pay well."

"No Yoongi-"

"I know! It's not 'suited for me' but if Chim needs a ride then I'm going to deliver-"

"Yoongi!" Namjoon raised his voice as he spoke, "the dare! Don't forget about the dare!"

And that made Yoongi's smile drop clear off his face. His brows furrowed together and his lips turned down into a deep frown. He looked fucking angry.

Namjoon's chest was rising and falling at a slightly increased rate, panic racing through him as he finally got the words out to the older. He felt guilty for reminding him, but he knew he had to do it because no one else would.

"I'm sorry Yoongi but I know that you've gotten really close to h-"

"Fuck off."

Yoongi kept his head down for the rest of the class period and had avoided all his friends for the rest of the day. It's now fresh in his mind, the thought of how he got such a blessing into his life just to ruin it makes him sick to his stomach.

He can't believe he got so caught up in the younger. He's completely infatuated with the blonde boy. Jimin quickly became a fundamental part of his life and he can't wrap around the disgusting thing that he originally wanted from him.

Min Yoongi wants nothing more than to hold the boy, tell him that he's okay and that he's's worth something. Tell him how perfect he is and how much he thinks about him.

Never would he imagine trying to force the boy into something. He would never try to make the younger uncomfortable or stressed out. Just the idea of it makes him want to throw up.

So now that he's brought back to the fact that he has to forcefully shove Jimin out of his comfort zone just for his shitty ass friends to leave him alone about some crush that doesn't even fucking exist anymore, he fucking hates it.

At lunch he couldn't even smile at Jimin, he refused to. And Jimin could easily tell that something was bothering the older and it made him confused when he wouldn't tell him what was happening. It made Jimin a little nervous.

'Hyung, I don't like it when you look upset.' Jimin wrote and pushed the book over to Yoongi.

Yoongi shook his head, brushing his fingers through his hair.

"I know Chim, I'm alright. I just got too many things going on in my head."

'Don't let thoughts consume you. It's better to let them out.'

"Yeah," Yoongi sighed looking over at the younger before he snapped, "I mean no! No. I'm just dealing with some me stuff you know? I'd be better not to drag you into it."

The irony of that sentence made Yoongi want to cringe, he'd already drowned Jimin in the situation. Shit, the situation is fucking built off of Jimin.

'I wouldn't mind as long as it made you happier,' Jimin wrote and smiled at Yoongi.

Yoongi sighed again, he wished that the feeling wasn't so heavy in his chest. The guilt was making his hands start to shake ever so slightly.

"It's not that I don't want to tell you but I don't think I would have the right words? I just need to figure some stuff out for myself first," Yoongi said and picked at the food on his tray.

'Okay, whatever you want hyung. Hand?' Jimin passed the book over and watched the way Yoongi's eyes scanned the sentence a few times.

The older held his hand out, his fingers twitching slightly. Jimin smiled brightly as he laced their fingers together, squeezing the older's hand tightly.

Yoongi felt tears pooling in his eyes as he stared at his tray in front of him. He's fucked, he knows that this entire situation is fucking pathetic. He feels so disgusted with himself.

He can't stand that his own pride comes before Jimin. Makes him want to tell Jimin to never speak to him again, but solely for Jimin's sake. He'll never be able to give Jimin what he deserves, the love and passion that the boy needs.

He can sure try though.

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edited by Sakurachiru the best avocado in the bunch