strawberries (yoonmin) #WATTYS2019

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Saturday, May 12th

"I got the video. We'll meet at Taehyung's house in an hour. If someone is late then they're missing it." Yoongi's voice was dry and hoarse.

"Are you sure?" Namjoon's voice was soft.

"Either show up or don't."

And then he hung up the phone. Jimin was busy in his room at the orphanage doing his makeup work so he told Yoongi they couldn't hang out that day, and Yoongi knew that if he didn't do it then, he would never do it.

He hates himself. He can't stand the fact that he would die if someone told Nari how obsessed he was with her, and it'd be even more embarrassing because Nari was gay or bi or something. Yoongi doesn't even know himself. And he definitely was not going to ask.

He also really fucking hates Taehyung. If he said one word of slick shit to Yoongi, he would punch him. He had a dream about just decking him right in the jaw. Namjoon would, of course, step in, even did in his dream.

Yoongi laid his head on the steering wheel as he was parked in his driveway. He hadn't moved for the past fifteen minutes. He really wished Jimin was there.

But maybe he didn't deserve for Jimin to be there.

And with that thought in mind, he drove off to Taehyung's house. He decided that it would be the last time he would ever talk to these guys. And he'd let them hear all he had to say before he left.

So he turned on his car, plugged his phone into the aux cord and pressed shuffle. Now, Yoongi is a man of music. His playlist contains music from all languages, all genres, all different times so pressing shuffle is like picking one blade of grass from a field.

It happened to be the Bee Gees, an immensely popular band from the 70's. Although he doesn't know English, if he couldn't find the translation online he'd ask Namjoon to tell him. So he knows the songs fairly well.

He's got a book of song lyrics from non-Korean songs translated, that sits under his bed.

How Can You Mend a Broken Heart is the song that played.

A song that Yoongi would say is definitely one of his favorites from the band. He mumbled the lyrics softly as he drove down his street. He doesn't quite remember what the lyrics mean but the tune is nice and soft. He wants to show Jimin this song now that he thinks about it.

He shows Jimin music every day. If Yoongi really likes a song, it's his first thought to add it to the playlist he made for the younger to listen to and enjoy.

The song was over and a new song began to play. Snow by Zion.T, which is another one of Yoongi's absolute favorite songs.

Listening to it made Yoongi want to stop everything he's doing and plan for the next winter, to be with Jimin during the first snow.  There's a Korean saying that if you are out in the first falling snow of the year, with someone you like, then true love will blossom between you.

And Yoongi wanted nothing more than that moment of true love.

They might have been together during the winter of that year, but it wasn't love on Yoongi's mind when they were together.