My story

9/12/18

It's 2:44 A.M.

Hello all.

Is been a year and a half since I last updated so I expect this to get 0 reads and that's fine.

I'm a freshmen in college, currently writing this in my dorm.

I go to therapy again and I'm working things out. Turns out having mental illness 1/3rd of your life just can't go away by will power, I start medication in 2 weeks.

I've changed a lot in the past 4 years.

I no longer feel dysphoria or gender issues. I'm a girl and I like that.

I do however have body dysmorphia, and on and off eating disorders that I've been doing really well with this week.

College is probably the most stressful thing I've ever done, and it sucks because I was just diagnosed with Patellafemoral Stress Syndrome, so I'm not really supposed to climb stairs or run which is problematic because I still do athletics and... I live in the basement of my hall.

I actually switched dorms because my roommates stayed up until 2 A.M. and had people in our room and were loud. I'm glad I moved though because if they want to live that life, good for them.

I miss my dog a lot, he's a sweet boy. I'll leave a picture of him here.

I also might get an emotional support animal for my crippling anxiety and depressive episodes.

I might update this again, maybe not, whatever.

I'm just glad I found this because now I can show my therapist a part of my life that I quite frankly don't remember almost at all due to the brain blocking.

Also the boyfriend I talked about in the last update was extremely mentally, emotionally, and physically abusive. So at this point in my life I've been abused by three separate people.

I'm in a relationship now with a boy I've known for 10 years and we plan on getting promise rings soon and maybeee moving in together next summer. We'll see.

I probably will update this again because my therapist told me to write journals and all that.

So maybe I can entertain others too.

Only time will tell friends.

Remember: life will only ever be as good as you allow it to be.